Yet I Am.(Excerpt from"Eternal Road" Part 2) --Taite

Hiya, well I won't get chance to be on much soon, due to school (out for holidays for two weeks soon though). This post is an excerpt from Eternal Road, part two, which I am still working on before posting it, but as I said, I won't be able to for a while, so I'm posting this now, while I can. Hope you like it. Or loathe it. It's not that big a deal. It's your life, right?

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I haven't slept in seventeen months. Not properly. Because everytime I fall asleep, I wake up. I wake up into a world that is not my own. A world of chaos. I cannot tell now which world is real and which is imaginary. Perhaps they both are. But is neither world exists, neither do I. But I do exist, that's what I keep telling myself. If I wasn't real, I would not be self-conscious. Yet I am. I don't know what I am or who I am. Yet I am. I have no idea where I am or how I got. Yet I am. I don't know what to do or where to go. Yet I am. I can move, but I can't. Yet I am. I exist, but I don't . Yet I am. I am.

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I am stuck now to one world. The world of chaos. Disorder is the only ruler. This world confuses me, for I know it is not where I belong. It's haunted my dreams for so long, but I dont belong. I remember all things from my other life, but I remember nothing. I get glimpses of it in my mind, but cannot recall the facts and details that make my life uniquely different to those of others. I have lost everything, but keep everything. I can see the people, yet know not who they are. I remember the people, but not their faces. I am tormented each and every day by the surrounding chaos. I don't know who I am, or what I am. Yet I am.

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I know now the secrets of this world, this life, this prison. I know now where I am, and what is happening. All else is lost, but this I know. I am not of your world, reader. I am dead. Welcome to my world, where chaos is the only order. Welcome to Hell.