My dream...i hope it ain't the future. :( *sniff sniff*

A final good-bye but not the end He had been there for me always, holding me teaching me and now he was gone. Silent and sleeping forever. The ache in my chest could not be ignored. I listen to the soft sound of leaves twirling and twirling on the forest floor. I stared out towards the gentle river, hearing the mighty gentle crash of the waves to rocks made me think about better times, but like betrayal I banished the thoughts. He was gone. Forever. Tears threatened my eyes, I pushed them back. "Hey." I remembered him saying. "You and I" as he gentle touched my chest high above my breast where my heart beat against his hard callused hand. "We are one." I remember the feel of his hard lips and the rough scrap of his stubbed jaw as he would drop a kiss to my cheek or forehead. Always a gentleman. I let the tears come then. I drop to my knees before his grave. The cold autumn ground piercing my flesh. He had taught me to love again, and see the light even in the dark. I stood for him I would not let this fall me. I dropped the rose I had been clutching too into the shallow hole before me. I laid a hand on my lower stomach, there is life there. A life not yet born. It was to be a boy I could feel that. I would raise his son. It was just his son and myself against the world now. I turned towards the small path towards the river and our home. The wind caught a final tear caressing my cheek "Good-bye my love......................"

It made me sad, but happy. i am lost