Escaping the Grasp..part 4...the paramedics came

You did it again didnt you....
Looking for that same sweet rush, to hear that train,
You yourself should know by now....
That you'll always be looking in vain.

Are you happy, are you proud.....
Of the fact that your destroying me,
You know deep inside exactly what your doing...
What ever happened to the man you used to be?

Does it make you happy, to know youre killing me...
That your love for that means more to you,
Than your family, than our love, than the kids who love you,
That needle and spoon is all that stays in your view.

Once I used to be happy.....
One time I knew you loved and wanted me,
Now thats all you want, all you care about....
When I look at you now, I dont know the man I see.

You've done everything possible to destroy everything good in my life.....
You dont believe the consquences of your action is true,
Just sit back and watch...as whats left falls down around me....
Watch as I lose everything that means something...all because of what you do.

You and your one true love....
You make me want to die,
There was a time I trusted you...I held to you for all I lacked...
Now I think you're happy when you make me cry.

When does it end...when do you get your act together.....
One too many times youve swore it would be the last,
I believed you....for a while...when do you really stop....
Will you ever have the strength to put this in the past?

Maybe when you finally leave me with nothing........
My kids, our marriage, our lives...not a single thing to hold onto,
Then will you be happy when you've destroyed all that I was, all I cared for....
It wont matter....just like before...nothing but your coke matters to you.

Not me, not my kids, not your job, not your family, not your dreams or hopes........
Maybe once before...but now nothing at all,
As long as you've got your God forsaken needle and your drug....
Your high as a kite, why would you care how low I fall.

What about when I lose the kids....because of your cocaine.....
What happens when because you cant stay clean they dont come home,
You'll shut yourself in our room...go to your hiding place for your stash.....
While I lose it all in my usual state....alone.

The night the of the paramedics.....