Going Through the Motions.......by AGENT SMITH

Yo Peoples,
Heres a poem I wrote today. Its kinda sad so I'm not too sure why I'm even posting it. I hope that some people here will understand it, maybe even identify with it. Some will judge me for it..and thats okay too.



I try so hard just to let you go,
To release you from my mind.
Though it seems every thought comes back to you,
I am forever stuck in time.
I try to lose myself in the arms of another,
Another nameless, faceless fling.
Try to forget by taking yet another lover,
But it doesn't seem to do a thing.

Just going through the motions, just lying to myself,
Trying to forget that I cared for you so.
In the morning when we wake and go our separate ways,
I feel ashamed of these things I do.
I feel so dishonest, when laying in their arms,
Whispering words that should be for you.
For the pleasures of the flesh are so hollow and dross,
When they aren't shared with a love thats true.

But here I am, in yet another crowded bar,
Trading glances across the room.
She walks on over, we chat to eachother,
Before long we are heading home.
She isn't Mrs Right...but she's Mrs Right Now,
And she enjoys her time with me.
But in the morning when we wake and go our separate ways,
I know it wasn't her that I see.

And once more I feel ashamed...and so I should,
For I have betrayed all that I believe.
She's just another nameless, faceless fling,
A replacement for the one I seek.
But as I said...she enjoyed her time,
Thanked me with a kiss so sweet.
Though I know that I'm just going through the motions,
For its you that I long to meet.



Peace and hugs,
AGENT SMITH

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