Dreams and Memories

Is this a dream or a memory?
The life that I think about is
Within your souls desire I
Think of us one last time
Commit your picture to memory
And pass out along the road
Take my soul away and take
Me to unknown places of Eternity

“One man’s failure is another’s
Gain so don’t let me fail
On the trip to heaven oh
God let me handle what I
Can”

The wire cuts closer to the veins and
I take another hit all the drugs
Can’t help me cause life sucks
When you’re smoking a J just
To stay warm

It’s times like this that I just
Want to cry and make the pain
Go away cause within the soul
Is a desire to be free and
To let everything go

Look you can’t control me and
You can’t rule me and if you
Try then maybe I’ll just
Have to do this all over again
Maybe I’ll do it this time
You know what I’m talking
About and you don’t like it
When I talk like this

Cause it’s in dreams and
Memories that I can really
Think about you and us
And what it was really like
Back then

You really wanna know what’s going
On? Forget it I don’t think you
Deserve to know cause your
Self-righteous act ain’t gonna
Get you through this life so
Take a look around you and
See that whatever you do life
Takes it’s toll on everyone so
Now you think you still deserve
To know? Well once you stop
That self-righteous act then
Maybe I’ll tell you

See life takes away everything when
Some person takes their time to
Commit to another’s life that’s
What gets my anger so riled
Up and now you think it’s funny

You thought that I’d get sane
Again when I take another
Hit and I can see you
Laughing as you look down
Upon me as you beat me
Each night

Cause it’s in dreams and
Memories that I can really
Think of you and us
And what it was really like
Back then

Now I’ve taken a turn for
The worst and you can see
The anger starting to flare
Up in my eyes but you
Keep on I just don’t
Get it don’t you ever
Learn?

I guess not cause you keep
It up and you think that
You’re gonna get away with
It I think not

You took away my pain and
You gave me pleasure when
I needed it and now you
See why my pain is caused
By my pleasure you take
Everything as one big joke

Now when I told you this
Once before you told me
That I can’t handle the
Truth look me in the
Eyes and say that again
Maybe you can take me
There again

My life’s so messed up I don’t
Know if I can take this any
More cause anyway you do
This it pains me to see you
Down in the dirt and my
Battle was lost but I’ll always
Fight for you

Cause it’s in dreams and
Memories that I can really
Think about you and us
And what it was really like
Back then

Only in Dreams and Memories