Secrets

I read the will today
To my beloved son for reasons known to me
I leave no provisions

My life and what I meant to you summed up in one sentence
The favorite sibling who turned my life into haunted memories
My only mother, tell me you could not see the black ink turning red?

I did the most for you the many years he was absent
Sabotage and betrayal a game together you both played well
There are no answers to the questions
I am consumed by the hurricane of emotions
You looked into my eyes but my body was invisible

You kept a secret that surfaced from deep waters
I was pulled under and lost oxygen
There was only polluted air filtered with evil and eternal pain

I needed a ride, the express bus to suicide
A yellow taxi would take me through the local route instead
The blue sky has turned a dark black
How many years in my time line were erased for the chosen one?

The favorite sibling owned the pole position
I was sacrificed with extreme prejudiced
Lost in a lie
My foundation was crushed to pieces