"WHAT Went wrong that you made so right."

Everything is based upon the moment you realized "that you" saw something entirely new...then you became aware in all the misunderstandings you learned how to repel people and your power of repulsion was enough to protect you from others and you in your blindness became so good at keeping others back not letting them too close and to keep them at bay was hard to do and when you see "THAT"...YOU...Say oh my god I'm so powerful enough to keep them all away from me so they can't hurt me and you also say oh my god I'm not now bringing them to me to be with and help me I'm keeping them back safely.and away......and then your shocked in a good way yet still disturbed because you realize how great your powers are to repel others and keep them away from you and in the same breath you realized you have never practice bringing them to you....and the idea scares you that you even could or would want to now and the idea scares you that you have held the world out and why would you ever want to do that and you know that only if you really understood "that"...would you ever really be ok with that too...and so now in disbelief you just thank god because you do and you want to attract people to you now if you can really understand why it is that you do....and you do.....