"Twisted thoughts and how they think,never sometimes."

Just how much I loved you I loved you so much and I was no fool I was the coolest of cool and ignorance knew not me yet I didn't know it and I was the smartest of the smartest artist and don't think I could lose cause I can't no way not today or any other day in time and you would know my rhyme but only if I wanted you to and I did and I was going to get you to love me not just for a day or a week or a month or even a year I was going to guarantee you could never forget me and so I knew since I could live for you and yet you might not live for me too instead I could die for you and I already knew you would not die for me you see but I was the one to see you see or this story couldn't be... You see you didn't know my plans to make you love me were first to profess my love to you and for you and then because you wouldn't believe me because who would only I could and since I couldn't live for you I knew I could die for you because that's how much I loved you that I needed a guarantee not a maybe if so I told you I would be your Angel if ever I was to die and this was probably the case because you were asking me why I wanted to die because I was probably doing something really stupid in front of you to make you ask me why in the first place in the second place after I talked about being your Angel if I ever died and you agreed because if I ever did ever die you thought maybe it should be or could be or at least you would have let it had you not up until then let me....I was smart and I planned to die to guarantee no other man could capture you in life especially not me you see but I did in death get you to accept me in your life because since I had died and had talked about it first you would have assumed it must have been meant to be and that was because I was smart not because I was stupid....and the smartest piece of knowledge we all should now know is that if I was so smart in life why did I require death to fool you into thinking I was so much larger than life...because I couldn't while living while I was not living for you and wouldn't just wanted to take you any way I could and in dying you won me over against your will...which brings me back to the original question...if I was not willing to live for you why was I so willing to die for you just to force you to feel a certain way which I couldn't unless I died???.. If I could answer that question maybe instead of doing what I did I would have tried to really understand love instead of just how to manipulate others instead...and if that happened...I probably would never have thought I was so smart for being so stupid in the second place...and in the first place if you never had any guilt because all of this happened to me you I wouldn't be trying to manipulate you in death because I knew it wouldn't happen in life if I really did ever love you for real...and then I asked myself why I really ever thought I was so smart for trying to deceive you in the first place....guess I wasn't so smart... if I could have lived for you why was I so smart for being dead instead...guess you'll never know.....I never didn't..thanks for reading twisted thoughts not to think.