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~Be Careful of the Stones we throw~





Hello Angels,



I hope all are doing very well having a nice Sunday---------- I’m planning on attending evening church service but wanted to drop by with an update on this horrific nightmare, this tragedy losing our precious baby Boy, our Jimmy <3 <3 How I Love and Miss that Boy! It’s so hard to take------how so much I appreciate Your Prayers for me and my family, Angels--------- God bless each and every one for Your Prayers!

It’s funny how a thing like guilt will eat a person alive if they let it. No, it’s not me feeling guilty, rather I’m referring to those who make false accusations, slander others’ out of their own guilt-----but I do have a world of regret when it comes to my nephew. Since our Boy’s tragic cruel murder; there have been those to say, “You need to get over this now.” Get over it!?--------- He’s only been gone 27 days today---how could one possibly “get over” or forget that a precious loved one is gone---------that a cold heartless callous and calculating murderer took the life of a 24 year old boy that he was insanely jealous of?!!

Of course this is my opinion, but being here on this planet for a number of years, it’s not too difficult to discern------------what happened-----the psychological abuse, the brow beatings, the methodical isolation from family, from his friends, loss of independence, self-reliance and sufficiency due to their interference with his job (s)..the drastic change of appearance (he was being starved among other horrific treatment ) and the systematic tearing down of his self-worth, self-esteem---------In our so—called modern times, it’s a horror story you’d think you would only hear about in the news or read about in a book, a novel but it’s very real, a true life horror with all the classical signs of narcissistic sociopaths, abusing a very highly intelligent young Boy.

Then, You have those who are making false accusations, so cold and thoughtlessly saying that my family and I ran Jimmy off, or didn’t love or want him. These are tales the murderer and his wife and other relatives are proclaiming, how narcissistic of them! Well, I have one thing to say about it because I don’t intend to waste my writing or my breath on the opinions of those who do not matter, their opinion or involvement is irrelevant to me or this situation and furthermore they know not one thing about this entire story, yet have nothing better to do with their time then to stick their nose in other people’s hurt, their personal business and give an opinion that they do not know one thing about!!

~My opinion, they better clean up their own back yard----and unless they’ve made no mistakes in their lives, be careful of the Stones we throw..~ We went to pick up our Boy’s mail last Friday after going to the judicial center and learning there wasn’t a hearing. Without going into great detail, we were there talking to the attendant as she was discussing a tragedy in her own life. Our hearts going out to her as well. The attendant was sharing her personal hurt when one of the murderers’ relation walks in passing us with a cold overbearing attitude, you could certainly feel, as well as see. The relative dropped off a letter then walks back outside only to turn around and come back inside, staring at both my Mom and I then screaming for the woman not to believe a word being said against Teddy Johnson,( I believe I can say his name here since this is in the national and regional as well as local News Headlines ).. The relative was screaming saying, it was nothing but lies and calling my Mom and I liars.

I reminded myself though I am a Christian, I am human too. And with all we are going through, I’m not in any frame of mind to tolerate someone screaming obscenities at me, calling me a liar, continuing their barrage of evil insults about our boy, me and my family---------It was a case of someone who thought they could bully someone simply because they are accustomed to having the reputation of doing this to others. However, I’m not a 24 year old, neither easily intimidated and they quickly learned this. I was accused from being on drugs to not loving our Jimmy----------when I know the person involved has been on prescription medications from the time they suffered a loss themselves and hardly know which end is up, whether they are coming or going, pitching or catching and I said so. When they started slinging insults telling me that I should have took care of Jimmy, and that we didn’t love him-------

I simply said to them, they had better clean up their own back lawn and be careful of the stones they throw, because had they been more observant with their own loved one and to whom they associated, their loved one might still yet be with us. But when I said this, to this person; I committed a mortal sin, I stepped over the line they said---------no, they stepped over the line when they left the post office but turned around and came back inside--------screaming threats, slanders and accusations at my Mom and I------

Legally, that will stand and there are surveillance cams to prove I’m right. But they’ll not treat me or my Mom as they did Jimmy--------------I’m not so easy to Bully and I said this, I said to them they had best leave well enough alone and let the legal system resolve this---------------Their relative is a monster and committed a heinous crime and that he cannot change neither take back and for this reason he will suffer the consequences, You cannot go around murdering people simply because You are jealous, envious of them, wanting to abuse, use them and thinking you can get by, get away with it!!-----------

My Nephew is just as gone and I Pray Justice will be done!------ The individual nearly came unglued so to speak--------------Then my Mom walked toward the individual pointing her finger at them, telling them she “Rebuked them in the name of Jesus Christ”------------- truthfully this incident was nothing more than another satanic ploy an attack to bring about more devastation---needless to say, the person was shocked, surprised into momentary silence-------------and then my Mom proceeded to tell them they had been “had” “duped” by these people—They had been lied to about every thing-------after my Mom explained, they said to my Mom that they didn’t know this. Of course not, in their own sorrow and grief from the loss of their loved one, how could they possibly be as observant as they needed to be. To know that their relation is not the person (s) they had thought.

There were no apologies but I didn’t expect any-----though perhaps it gave them something to think about, perhaps not. I honestly don’t care---------When people make false accusations but are faced with the cold hard reality of what is truth, it’s different isn’t it. --------Those lightweight stones they are busy throwing suddenly become heavy, burdensome……. When my Mom and I walked out of the building after I had apologized to the attendant for the 2nd time, we started to walk to my car. The relative of the murderer was still there, sitting in their blazer. Looking toward me. My Mom said to me over the noise of the highway traffic, I had better watch myself, with the look on the relative’s face you could still see they were angry.

I looked toward them into their eyes and I am sure they knew at that moment that I knew the move they were sitting there thinking about making-----they had better think it over and leave instead while they were ahead. Because had that murderer thought about what they were about to do, running after, then shooting at my nephew 3 times, then hitting him in the back the 3rd time.------- It’s a Coward’s way. Yet, Someone very wise said to me; “They died right along with my nephew that day--------------him and his entire family. But they should have thought about that before they pulled the trigger, killing my precious nephew! The relative backed up then drove in the direction toward town. I said to my Mom even though, we were not in the wrong legally or otherwise, we were there to pick up what belonged to our boy. Still, we should try to avoid any other problems with those people.



Even though they started this. I have talked to the police where we live and they said to me If they come near my family or me threatening to Harm any more of my family, legally I will finish it. Actually the same relative was brewing for trouble the last time we were all in court----I glanced toward the murderer and his relatives and this particular relative stared down my family and I. But looking, yelling screaming are one thing, it’s called child’s play-------touching is another story altogether different-----------------They were warned by the Judge to stay away from my family and I---------and not to create or cause problems or trouble. ----------They aren’t listening very well. Yesterday evening my brother saw them, meeting them as they were driving down the by—pass of my old hometown and someone rolled down a window in the car, yelling at him. That’s not a good thing either. They are as crazy insane as I suspected they were but even moreso than previously thought.

And as far as false accusations made toward both my Mom and I--------- until You can step up to the plate and re—pay me the price of what I paid out for my Jimmy’s education, car maintenance, gasoline, clothing, including all his necessities---------------opening Your BIG mouth, you should be more careful about that, the stupidity is showing. During our visit, running here and there at the judicial center, in an attempt to learn about the hearing, we learned the hearing had been postponed however we were not contacted before the fact. It’s seems another deliberate insult although veiled. Although, we did get the opportunity to speak with someone beneficial to this tragedy.



It’s horrendously devastating, all the grief, the tears------ to feel so helpless to do any thing but stand by and watch my Brother go through the pain he’s going through, then trying to encourage, console our Mom, the rest of my immediate family and try to deal with my own pain, grief----it’s hard enough to try to grasp the realization we have lost our precious Boy, but having to deal with an upcoming trial of the perpetrator, the cold deliberate murderer who committed this heinous act after months of abuse. Then having to deal with insane people in addition to all of that. You try to search for any and every thing that will shed light-------- to somehow find the missing pieces to the puzzle—searching for answers as to why someone could be so cruel to shoot a young boy in the back….who wasn’t a threat to him----simply because he could and believes he can get away with it---------------That’s a real piece of work right there-------------it’s called “ARROGANCE” A Disregard for human life--------- and from a Spiritual point of view; it’s also called Pure EVIL-----Nothing but the Work of satan; a non-believer filled with demons of jealousy, hatred, resentment, of narcissistic behavior----

I said to my Mom yesterday, none of us are to blame---yet we all feel deep regret for various reasons. Personally, I feel like we were caught unaware, when we weren’t watchful. I should have been more vigilant and because I wasn’t as I should have been, the evil worker that is satan slipped in, taking our precious beloved Boy from us. He is an Accuser, a Devourer, the Destroyer of lives and he is no respecter of persons, he will do all he can to tear lives asunder, bent on the very destruction of God’s Children…

How does one go from here?--------How do we pick up the pieces of our hearts, shattered every where on the ground----our lives-----how do you get up from something like this? One step at a time-----------One day at a time~ I am trusting in The LORD-------Praying every minute of each and every day----Prayers for my Brother, Mom, the rest of our family…..”Sometimes I feel like a sailboat out on the sea. Tossed to and fro as billows roll all around me as they threaten to overcome.” Yet, I Know The LORD is near, He’s Holding onto each one of us and together with Him we will ride out this storm. Several years ago, I suffered another tragedy, and though it’s something I don’t talk about, a song/poem I wrote, titled “Ride out the Storm” was born out of that tragedy.



When it comes down to the heart of a matter, the real test----we learn by Faith, what a Loving Faithful God He truly is----- by going through the deepest most frightening valleys and walking the darkest hills---Until God brings us out on the mountaintop-----into the sunshine-----------No, we’re not alone because He is walking with us!----- The Lord God will never leave or forsake us when we put our trust in Him. That’s a reality and those who have gone through adversities, tragedies of their own know exactly what I’m talking about. God is not a God of fairy tales, or story books or a crutch---A figment of the imagination-----------He is Omnipotent, He is GOD and He’s still on The Throne and He sees the evil that men do, it grieves Him---------And He’ll not tarry forever-------------- He will repay--------

There will be Justice for Our Jimmy----evil will not prevail------------nothing in this world can ever Triumph over the Mighty Hand of God’s dear Son! As soon as so many and I hit our knees------------ I Believe with all my heart that God’s holy Angels were waiting to hear from the Throne--------------I was saying to Someone the other day-------it’s horrific enough what these people did to our Jimmy-------in this life---------but imagine what this has created in The Spiritual realm------------They have set things into motion they cannot even begin to comprehend, change neither stop--------------------------I'm reminded in God's holy word; as Elisha said to his Servant--------Open Your eyes--------------We are never alone……and Help is on the Way! Thank You my heavenly Father Lord God for what You are doing and what You are Going to do on Behalf of Your Children~

Much Love, Prayers Always, dear Angels of USM~

God bless~

By Faith; Holding that much tighter to God's Unchanging Hand~

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