The other day, I could have easily thrown in the towel. I could have quit my job, walked out of my home. I felt terrible. I was so low.
Different events led to these feelings of self doubt. I felt that I wasn't good enough at my job. That I wasn't doing my job the way I was supposed to.
Hubby had been upset with me the night before, and said some hurtful things, that I took as personal truths.
When I got home from work, feeling soooooooooo low and wallowing in self doubt and yeah, self pity, my husband was there for me. He listened to me. He heard me. I only talked of the work situation, as I just couldn't face what had happened between us the night before. Without being prompted, he apologised for what he had said. That he was in the wrong, and, what I had thought were truths, weren't.
Although initially my spirits weren't lifted with his words of positiveness, they eventually fell over me. He had been so kind, and I had often snapped at him. Not wanting him to interfere with my thoughts of doom.
But relaxing in the bath, I realised that even though I didn't think all of his attentiveness was wanted, it was what he thought would be helpful. It made me appreciate his efforts all the more. I thanked him, and tried to be more positive.
The next day, I started off struggling. But as the day wore on I decided not to let it pull me down. If I wasn't doing my job properly, the boss would soon let me know. I turned my attitude around....and realised that my self doubt was really just that. SELF....
I went to Zumba that night, and by the time I got home I felt wonderful and my normal self again.
I tell this story in the hope that it will help anyone who is feeling down. If we live in the moment of self doubt we are not helping ourselves. Try to bring yourself up and out of it. Even if you don't fully believe what people are telling you, appreciate their efforts in trying to help. That helps.
It's amazing what a difference a day or two can make.
