Threatened by someone I love... Molested by the person who sent us insane to break us appart :,(

I have been coming here for years... In the past I mentioned being a troubled teen. The bullying I went through. Even without anti-bullying laws. My bullies would have been arrested it was that intense... I got PTSD from those events

Recently I was able to completely put all that behind me. Then one night it all turned on it's head. I had just gotten into a relationship with a lovely guy... Or I thought so it is hard to tell now... We were all out celebrating his birthday. His best friend after a lot off drama... Has finally agreed to come along. Despite being upset about us being together, Me rejecting him. Etc. I was happy they were friends again and I had completed my first week off my new course. It was a happy fun night... Then drama started being kicked up and no matter what I did I was being made the bad guy even after all I did for them...

He hit on my best friend so she was forced to leave... She got sick off saying "I have a boyfriend" and my now ex bfs best friend saying that we told him they broke up" I was like "for the last time... stop making up stuff... no one said that to you get the hint"

She left and he immediately turned on me bullying me. Putting ideas in my bf's head about how I start drama. At the end off the night a friend had to comfort me saying that it was him directing the attention away from him. The part that traumatized me however it hard to spit out... I am sorry to Admins about this places "G rating" being put to harm by me mentioning this. But he kept going on about how him me and my bf were all going to have a 3some and were going to be high fiveing each other and when I rejected this he was just telling me to shut up and bullying me some more till I cried... The stuff that caused my PTSD was being kicked back up and they both knew this.

Before those two fought and he nearly did not come to the birthday party

He kept hitting on me in front off my bf and I kept rejecting him... He went as far as groping and grinding up against me and when I pushed him away he looked cut *face palms* I told him it was inappropriate He was like "but you let **** do it?" I looked at him like he was dumb cause... Well what else did he expect me to say? And I told him "cause he is my boyfriend" and he started up drama by saying My boyfriend lied about being my boyfriend which started the drama that nearly did not make him come to his best friends birthday... It was bad my boyfriend (now ex) was trying to tell him and he was like "no I am not believing it" and when me and him talked... After that drama he kicked up. He was saying stuff to try and break us up while saying "no I am not changing my opinion for anyone... " I stupidly told him the nail in the coffin after that by saying I loved my bf so much that he was my weakness... After saying he was worth the risk and effort. The vibe I got from him was defeat...

When he did ... (Finally!) as me and various others said he seemed happy at first till that night... the birthday... it was going well. I look back to the moment now off me and him being all lovey dovey and I feel nothing but pain instead off happiness... cause someone just was that bent on destroying it... Like I was just a toy, And he was willing to hurt me and someone I loved for it...

Everything good and bad about that night now hurts me... In terms off how happy I was... and excited I was for the future. And it was all wrecked just cause someone had to be a child with rejection... My boyfriend was not innocent in all this he said horrible things about me in front off everyone to impress his best friend cause as he put it "He is popular and I want to be popular" I had a go at him for ages cause off this... And all that time he could off told his best friend to back off and he let him do that crap to me. Molest me which has traumatized me and then he verbally kept pestering us for 3somes a lot off the time it brought me to tears shaking... I before the breakup went to a friend off this who too had this best friend invade him and his gf cause they both liked her and she did like like the best friend and he was being very possessive and over bearing off her... This mutual friend just mocked me... Like I was nothing like I was just a girl starting drama. I told him the 3some talk put me on Valium... he just said "He is just going to do what he wants to do" everyone was shocked by that... Cause off what he did to his gf... I remember looking back at the conversation noticing he got more defensive when I mentioned his gf... I assume black mail may have gone on...

This did lead to them having a fight and me being chosen over the best friend. However 2 weeks latter we broke up... and we did get back together for 3 days and when I found him... He had not slept in days and was hearing voices he said that there was stress and pressure on him to dump me... according to friends. They had never seen him happier when he was with me. and that his best friend terrifies him... I have seen the abuse and invasive behavior myself and him being autistic would have been too much for him.

This is why after we broke up. (stupid me) was worried about me.

For awhile after the break up the best friend was being nice to me then I said out front I knew what he did... And that it was all pointless cause he has no chance with me as friends off mine have told me they saw him walking around drunk saying he was going to break us up... He then got paranoid and said I was turning people against him that I deserved to be in that asylum... I Kept trying to help my ex cause everyone was worried about him and never saw the break up coming and were telling me disturbing stories off how the best friend was pretty much speaking for him... over the top off him... or he would parrot his best friend... another thing that irritated the best friend was since being with me he was happier and standing up to his creep off a best friend... this infuriated him more... This best friend has said outright that he literally is god or that he is "the king" my ex was also now parroting his best friends behavior in being a bully...

This was very upsetting... He lost a lot off friends for that...

I also on facebook comments on a picture off me and this best friend with a very public and humiliating rejection... this made him report me to FB for cyber bullying the the comment got taken down which made me laugh cause he bullies people online all the time making himself out to be a "master troll" and me and another friend agreed that out off all the damage he did being rejected was sadly going to be the only thing which cut him the most... he thinks and acts like a child apart from the rather adult behavior... He at his 25th birthday threw a tantrum over the fact he could not get seconds on ribs.

So then my ex copied him on one last thing... Accusing me off cyber bullying...

I was venting about how my ex was treating me and he started sending me threatening msgs about wanting to kill me and get the cops on me (Yes I know... I did not believe it... I could see he was still crazy) I blocked him...

My friends said I was not the same after that...

Today I have just gotten out off an asylum cause the threats escalated so much that I attempted suicide... being attempting to jump in front off a train... the horrible feelings from being molested... and threatened were all too much...

I luckily have evidence to keep both away. And there friend...

I saw a post my ex made... He is by this point a different person no longer sweet, just menacing...

It was eye opening to how dumb people can be... it was him pretty much admitting to threatening me. And then saying he just wanted me to stop cyber bullying him... My dad even receiving some insane rants from him which my dad can not even make sense off... saying "he is delusional to believe that stuff he says..." his two sexist and pro-molestation friends joined in... plus one other random drop kick... I can not even say what he said on here... All I can say to that is... He did not make that job to easy with me having to drive to the city to stop him from getting himself into trouble when drunk... Which may also help explain the "other issue" either way he knew nothing off the situation and is a lesson to being careful off what you join in on...

The best friend in all seriousness said "call the cops if she does it again" *Face palms* x the other mutual friend called me a nut job who wanted to take everyone down with her... Just cause she did not get her way... I made a post about the 3 boys... One for my ex threatening me and the best friend for EVERYTHING. And

So what I am not allowed to be upset over being molested? and about having my relationship ended over some jealous man child? I once again just looked at him like "What are you hiding? do you understand that this is no longer a he said she said situation?? I thought you were the smart one out off the 3 off you..."

Before all this me and this best friend had no romantic sexual relations, then I met my ex and was love sick very quickly with him. and so was he and so I quickly just payed more attention to him... the best friend seemed happy about it at first for his friend... until other chicks kept rejecting him... he seemed to manifest that anger onto me... I was the symbol off all his rejection and I was in reach for him to vent it all ot onto... He was too evil to understand to consequence was more than just him however.

This has made me terrified off all human contact beyond friendship... no dating... relationships... or anything else. Romantic or / and sexual... Cause despite getting no diseased or getting attached to someone I got the wrong idea over I found out it can get bad the other way around if that person gets too obsessed...

me and my ex had a previous fight where I dropped a restraining order cause he cut his wrists over me... Sent me pics. Once again the best friend started this fight too... Me not being about to forget other people who too stuffed up in that department made me look like I was into drama... but for good reason. Considering it ended up with me having to see someone I care about cut themselves... The 3 boys were being one sided and dumb... Call the police over cyber bullying? as I said the best friend is notorious for that... I will even print out examples... just so the cops understand in case it is illegal.. I recently signed a petition due to his bullying off me... People around us gave looks off disgust watching him. Girls when friend-zoned him felt lucky they made that choice and he seemed oblivious off how this was hurting his image and even now blames me... Some think that in that time where me and him were not speaking and girls had just one after another rejected the best friend he got attached to me or / and started to consider me as another option then me and the ex made up and that was taken from under his feet... Still he never had a chance in a romantic aspect.

This time I have very disturbing evidence...

I am not dropping the restraining order this time.... And this time his friends are being mentioned...

I am finding the nights hard cause bad thoughts and nightmares plague me... and flash backs... Stuff to do with how my four year relationship ended come up... Since me and my last ex were together I feared him and the girl who broke up me and my 4 year relationship going against me again... I still do now... And I have told a friend. That neither off my last Exes are welcome in my lift after all this...

Before the break up I was breaking down in class... I was having nightmares... I was crying a lot... Cause off the best friend... And he seriously thought I would go for him after that? He calls himself an "Alpha male" and seems to think girls are obviously to that... He is not exactingly smart...



I feel trapped in this state off mind it hurts beyond belief

My author ID is 62146

there are even photos off the abuse I took while drunk on facebook I only realized till the next day what they were... I can not bear to take them down cause amongst them are really sweet pics off me and my ex looking happy...

Physics and stuff keeping saying I am about to meet my soul mate... And I am taking up martial arts and gymnastics to help me fight back or / and escape if I have to... I am now just so scared. At least I met some very good friends through my ex... Friends he has lost due to the threats and his behavior... He hates me for "taking his friends" but as they say "He did this to himself!" They too like me tried to help... I tell them they got off lucky with just rejections instead off threats.

I just want to go back to studying pathology and pausing dreams off being a writer... I may have asked for this in some ways but those who say so to me are the reason we still need feminism... Hence why I am not putting this in Author only reply to hide it... I am over being blackmailed... That was what only helped cause the PTSD the first time...

Love Cosmic Freak. :,(

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