The dream that helped calmed down recent suicide tendancies... ++Cosmic Freak++

In real life.

Bad stuff has happened. I had a suicide attempt on Saturday, that would upset my big brother off over 10 years I met on here (evil16) who has since been my big brother for stopping me from killing myself. Unfortunately I trusted the wrong person as a friend and he put ugly stuff I fought for years to cast away back into my head. As well as meddled in my recent relationship to a boy I was so very much in love with... Me and him started having nightmares and breaking down at the same time. We are currently broken up and he is as well in a bad place which made me furious at this "friend" who is his friend too... Cause I would rather him be happy without me than un-happy with me and this "friend" can not even allow him to have that... I still love this ex. But I do not know what is to become off us now... So I can not really wait around for him. I got to take care off myself. Some physic on here may want to help me into seeing what actually happened there... I just did not want what we had to end like that. Not like that. He deserves better than that. I know I do too but lately that has been hard to see.

In the dream

I was out on a field at night with some people. I do not know these people but I was with a man who has the exact some physical build and personality as a physic friend off mine predicted my soul mate to be... I was lying behind me and he was lying close to me. Back to me. Acting as a human shield. I did not pay attention to what was behind me. I remember being very drawn to him. In pretty much all aspects to what I consider a healthy relationship. In the romantic, friendship and sexual aspect. Plus more... I could not see his face I only for a second saw the side off his face. He seemed attractive. That is about all I know besides his physical built.

Then me him and the other people looked to the stars... And saw shooting stars. So many off them so we kept looking memorized. In owe... Then the shooting stars started to turn into fire works. We were a little scared this meant the world was going to end. But we just kept watching seeing no harm nor fatal danger and thought. "If the world ended now. At least it would end like this" Not much I remember off the others just that one feisty artsy girl with blonde hair. I woke up feeling calm and at ease. Like the future was bright.

++Cosmic Freak++

I think I can move on from my previous relationship... I was finding it hard to imagine someone I could love more. Now I see a glimmer off a possibility.

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