" Please Let the Guilt Go"

What Does This Mean?

A dream about the past, present, and future is involved within the dream I had in August of 2012.

Here is a little background information that will help make this dream make sense.

I have a male friend that is highly successful in his career. We recaptured and old friendship in 2004 when my husband and I helped him work on his second home in a secluded area near a beautiful river. I was having major marriage issues at the time, and was tired of twenty-five years of being treated poorly. I had recently graduated college, and had finally attained at least some degree of self-esteem.

Eventually, the house was built but my friend and I (he's a married lawyer/ politican) chose to continue being friends. I worked for him on a few occasions, and talked on the phone a few times. We have continued texting until recently. We shared many details about our life. Our dreams, our pain, as well as a belief that we understood each other. I must add that my friend seems very unhappy as if something eats at him. Guilt, a poor marriage, and at times I would be ready to cut ties altogether. Then, he would say things like no please don't I feel like crawling under a log and dying. The real person is locked away deep inside of him, but something causes his real-self to hide. He told me he had been sexually molested by an older under-age male cousin between the ages of five and thirteen. He refused to see me about three years ago,and at the same time he told me about his sexually molestation. He was seeing a counselor then because of his abuse. I think his wife may have found out something about him, and so he decided to get help to appease her. He also admitted to going on the down low a few time, but he said he was plagued with guilt. He did not marry until he was twenty-nine years old. Sex was not going to happen, and it seemed that he didn't want to see me anymore after this fact become a reality.

I had tried to understand the logistics of why anyone would refuse to see me. After all, I know I am a nice person, and I had never had someone reject me in this manner. A simple cup of coffee was refused. It has been three years. This rejection has a lot of pain, and perhaps a bruised ego along with it. I married the second guy I dated at the age of eighteen, and I had not intentions of leaving my husband. I just needed to know I was okay. Now on to my dream. I am a sociology and psy. major, so mysteries intrigue me.

My dream begin with brief snapshots.

A brief snapshot of a sign that exists on I-40 with a State Troopers name on it that died on that stretch of highway in 1990 or so. This really happened, and the sign is there. I met him briefly at a family renunion. I will call him John B. The sign is blue and white.

The second scene was an SUV vehicle crashing into a wing of a house that I knew was the master bedroom and bath.

The third scene involved me seeing a lady with very short black hair in a bathtub. I knew she was deceased.

The fourth scene was with me standing at the bottom of a hill to the side of a house near my lawyer friend while he was on the phone calling 911. I was observing this. We were not communicating.

A lawman arrived, and his name tag said John B. Eerie.. He went into the house, and came out briefly. He was staring straight at my friend like what? My friend knew he had been found out. My friend that had been in the political arena seemed to know that he was going to be implemented in the incident. He walked up to John B. and touched him on the left side of his neck. That was the end of the dream.

I woke up and felt a small indention on my bed as if John B. was making sure I remembered this dream. I was not scared. I looked up his name on the internet that talked about his job title when he was alive, and it was murder investigator and family protector. I feel my relative came back to protect my friend or I from something. I felt as if my friend's guilt and unhappiness is wrapped within what went on in my dream. I told him as well as I could through a text about my dream, and he said that I was the third person that had dreamed eerie things about him recently. I believe the lady in the dream actually existed back in the 90's, and that she died and left a note that the trooper found that implemented him in her murder or suicide. Just a thought; what do you think?