Phobia

I've come to discover that I just may have Hypno Phobia. Well it's not sleep,I have no problem at night unless I have something troubling me. It's towards hypnotizm, seeing the inducting,trancing state,watching the subjects "let go",seeing them "cashed out" and their "awakening" with a character alteration. Instead of being entertained and fasinated,I feel more like uneasy and shakened and errie inside over it. If I like watch a show like on tv or youtube I'm left feeling uneasy wondering if I should have watched it. On youtube for instance I get second thoughts watching it through or while still downloading it and click back off it. What is it that makes me feel so uncomfortable with the whole deal? If I feel that way watching it on people that I don't know,I can only imagine if they were people I knew. I would probably feel dismayed towards their attraction to participate and their willingness to be inclined to act a fool by the hypnotist's finger snaps,claps or"shouted orders",or see them then just sit there looking out of it like some kind of brain dead "zombie". In a way I'm kind of glad no one back then ever thought of inviting someone to put on a hypno-show at my old school for assembly/post prom etc. I guess I probably wouldn't have liked seeing my classmates being like some kind of mental puppets . I guess it's all the whole manipulation senerio that makes me feel ancy watching no matter however wonderful they're being made to be feel. Does anyone believe this may be attributed to some of the the painful events in my past(according to some of my postings)with the "blind obidience" I witnessed back in the most fragile stage in my live? I remember back when I was a small boy I had nightmares involving such senerios way before I even knew what it was. Well from what I can remember of them,it involved some "friend figure"(who for some reason I didn't feel right towards)of someone(person varied) who loved me and cared about me were somehow got manipulated against me. After their associating with this figure and their "sleep" I witnessed,then when this loved one woke up I no longer had their support or consideration,as if leaving me without anyone to lean on. Major blow to a childs feels huh? I usually woke up shaken.

I hope someone can help me figure this out why or how to handle this. Danny3