Before I was a Mom!

I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests,insert IV's or.
give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put him down and let him go.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body..
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom .
my children have made me a very strong person and showed me that I have a whole lot of strength and courage , sometimes out of necessity,endurance and that I am a Very Strong Parent that helps to give my children strength to deal with these things.Most of all,they brought back my faith and love in myself and in God.My kids and I firmly BELIEVE IN THE POWER OF PRAYER!! IT WORKS!(My children and I are survivors and God has helped us to be able to endure these hardships and look over them as stepping stones.)Now don't get me wrong thinking I am holier then though because I am not. My kids have just been the reason I wake up each morning and have learned to completely LOVE again.