Things are moving to fast, this stress is getting out off hand.

Things have felt like a dream due to how stressfull things Have been. I can not explain it, Things have been going by in fast motion, and there is like a glass wall between me and the world. I mean I have not even taken in yet, that my BF has yet again moved out off his parents place and in with his friends, down the road from another friend of theirs... My life is once again a massive dream.

I mean I am loosing my temper soooooooo badly lattely, I mean I have not got the patience off a saint. But I snapped at friend at University the other day (who is also a co-worker at my nursing home, in her second year as a nursing student at my University) I am getting very frustrated with my bf, for stupid things. I don't feel like myself

And it's only been two weeks University.

I am studying to be a Nurse at university. And it means a lot to me to not fail. My dad says I am hard on myself and put myself up to way to high standards. I mean maybe that is true. I did promise myself to get really high marks in everything or else I am worthless. I don't know why I thought like that. But Now I am telling myself. I can not even pass the course, cause off how consfussing the whole university thing off when assessments are due etc. I have missed a meeting with the people ffrom my group assessment and I nearly freaked out cause I slept in.

I know I have depression, anxiety and all that jazz. Including hearing voices etc. But is there a deeper reason why I can not deal with stress, till it builds up??

I honestly am so fed up that I wish I would disapear. And this sounds insane I know. But if I fail that is it.

I don't wanna see that.

*Cosmic Freak*