Well, to those who missed me, lol, I've haven't felt like going on my computer for ages. The story begins back at the end of April. My fiance, Rod lost his job, well he actually got angry at his foreman one to many times, and walked out. See the foreman would set stupid rules and break them himself. Like: You're not suppose to talk on your cell phone. It was ok for him to do it or hide in office and go to sleep. For the 5 years, everyone was aloud to talk on the phone when they were free. Last spring we were dealing with some issues with one of his daughter's and he had to talk to people to get her some help. The foreman told him one day to get off the phone and then Rod saw others talking on their phones but never got yelled at. He had it and quit. He said more or less that because of Morgan's issues, he lost his job since his family comes first. Those 5 months without much money, was very, very hard. We had to borrow money from his mom alot to get us through. He just couldn't find the right job for him.
The issues we were trying to get straightened out was the serious problems we were having with his youngest daughter, Morgan. Like I had wrote before, his kids have ADHD, ODD, and now they are also Pre By-Polar. That's what our new doctor says. Rod and I alway figured they were By-Polar for a long time. Last year his daughter, Shae got sent away to a place called 4 Oaks. It's a PMIC facility that helps young children. For the first 4 to 5 months, Shae played her game with them, but the real Shae came out later and had to stay there for 10 and half months. She came home last April. During the months the real Shae was actting out there, her sister Morgan started actting out here. Except she was WORSE then Shae every was. I had problems with Shae not listening to me, lieing, stealing, talking to herself all the time as if she was talking to someone else, and talking back. Morgan started going through puberty first so that's what I thought was going on. NO, it got worse. Her lieing and stealing was the same as her sister Shae but she would call me every dirty word in the book, all the mean words she could think of, and the biggest one was saying SHE WAS GOING TO STAB ME WHILE I SLEEP! She told me that at least once a week! I was so scared to fall asleep that when I did I wake up and hour later. I got so runned down that my blood pressure was going up. She tried to run away 3 times. Had to call our Sherrif friend to come down and talk to her. She also threatened to Stab Shae while she slept. She is scared to sleep when Morgan's here.
It got so bad here that I was in tears. I just about told my fiance, Rod we had to split because of her. I wasn't going to take it anymore. After I told him that he finally decided to get her some help. Well before this, she had went to school and told her counsler that I threw her to the floor one day, and chocked her which then she said I put a scratch on her neck. I did NOT do that what so ever! First off, she got a scratch on her neck the day before from her sister while they were on the trampoline fighting. Second, I never touched her. She was angry with me that day cause she didn't want to brush her hair or teeth before school and I told her to change her clothes to something more appropriate. She was wearing a top that school wouldn't allow. She flipped out on me shouting calling me dirty names and mean words. Her sister and brother saw and heard everything, so did my son. After that she yelled she was running away and out the door she went. I yelled back at her and said I was calling the sherrif. I dialing his cell phone number (have his personal number lol) but no answer. She came running back in when she saw me on the phone. I also called her dad who was on his way home from a job interview. The kids left for school before he got back. A few days later we found out she told her school counsler that lie because DHS came a knocking. Rod was ANGRY but I was hurt. The next week, Rod went to the county attorney and had her committed to the state hospital.
While at the state hospital, she played them also. Actted like this sweet, inaccent child. They discharged her only after one week saying nothing was wrong with her. She then went to live with her Grandma, Rod's mom, for a couple weeks till an opening at 4 Oaks. In the mean time she started to flip out on her grandma also. Grandma had enough of her. She finally got in at 4 Oaks June 6th. She has been playing them also. When she comes home for her monthy visits, she is herself again, talking to her invisible friends, swearing, lieing, stealing, calling me names and breaking things. Her counsler and staff at 4 Oaks knows she is playing them now cause the real Morgan is starting to come out. But now DHS found out we sent her there and doesn't like it, so they are NOT going to fund her stay there anymore. She is getting discharged on Oct. 12th. We, especially Shae and me don't want her to come home. I told Rod if she comes here, he will have to leave. I love him so much and I don't want to have to do this. So I will have to see what happens at the court hearing come Oct. 8th. We are taking DHS to court for false report. Hopefully she will get to stay at 4 Oaks cause she isn't ready to come home yet.
On with more...My youngest son Josh graduated from High School and this summer got very depressed. He wouldn't tell me what was wrong. I later found out but at the wrong time. One weekend he went to his sister's, Heidi to babysit her boys. He didn't come home one Sunday night like he said he would. He called and said she was bringing him home on Monday night. I got the weirdest feeling something was up. Come Monday night I was making supper when they came. They went in the livingroom to talk to Rod then went outside. I really knew something was up then and I had an idea what it was too. Josh came in the house and said he wanted to talk. I said Josh if this is about you moving out, like I had told you before summer that you should get a job and save money before move out. He said no more and then all of a sudden Heidi came storming into the house yelling at me. I didn't feel like arguing with her beside it was between Josh and I. She wouldn't stop yelling. I told her to leave. She wouldn't leave so I went to call the Sherrifs Dept. They said they would send a deputy right away. I went back to the kitchen and found her taking out Josh's things. She filled Josh head full of crap like how great it would be not living at home anymore. Things like that. She told him that I was a awful mom also. I figured out that she is just jealous because I buy Josh more things then she gets. She is also jealous because my mom and dad buy me things like my house. She thinks I should do the same thing for her. But I can't. I wish I could but I don't have that kind of money to buy her what she wants. She has always thought that people should hand her the silver spoon and the world revolves around her. Anyways, she continued to yell at me saying mean things. I told her all I've done for her when she came back to Iowa after all she did those mean things to me before Cassie passed away. I helped her fight to get her boys back after her hubby stole them. Then I helped her get her divorce and custody of the boys. She said I NEVER did anything for her. I was hurt. She never appreciated what I did for her taking her back into my life. I told her again to leave and that the deputy was coming. She still wouldn't. Next thing I knew a fist came flying straight for my face. I stood there for a second in shock that my daughter just punched me. I then went forward to her with my fist. That was the wrong thing to do is to punch me in the face. I punched and punched her. She was on the floor yelling for her boyfriend. Next thing I knew Rod was pulling me off of her and into the kitchen. She got up and came after me again. She grabbed my hair and tried to punch me again. Her boyfriend and Rod tried to get her off my hair. I grabbed her since she wouldn't let go. Finally she did and went outside. I was so angry and hurt by what she started. I should of just walked away when she punched me but I reacted to fast. The deputy came and she wanted to press charges on me, but the deputy told her since I called them to have her removed, she was trespassing. We haven't spoken since that night in July. I haven't seen my grandson either. Makes me sad. And the punch she threw put my neck out of place again. I just had surgery on it last year to have it fused. Now I have to have it redone and refused from the back this time.
Josh was suppose to start College this fall but Heidi wouldn't get him there. I was so upset. She almost had him talked out of going. He called the school and they got him starting in January, (second quarter). I told he better promise me he will go. He said he would, so I'm going hold him to it. He just found a job so he is saving his money so he can move out of sisters house. He is tired of her. He found out it wasn't as great to live with her as she made him think it was. She uses him as a free babysitter, just like I knew she would. I miss him here but I'm proud of him getting a job and saving his money. One thing I've notice that he keeps growing taller. He's over 6 foot now and teases me that I'm short. What a turd. LOL I did find out why Josh wanted out of my house. It was all because he couldn't stand to see Rod's kids hurt me so. I made him sad and depressed.
The end of this story still continues. The bad luck is neverending. Sure it makes me depressed but I'm getting to the point to where I'm starting to shug it off and keep kicking on. I try to stay busy with my animals and outside things. I have 4 ducks and 6 chickens out back plus the 4 ferrets, 5 cocktiels, 2 parkeets, and a dog to keep me busy. I also bike with the family and go walking with the dog. Lately I've been short of breath so I went to my doctor yesterday. My pulse has been running way to high for some time now and it was 108 yesterday. The highest it's ever been. He is sending me over to the hospital to have a CT Scan of my arteries and my heart. My birth family have heart problems and have died from them. It concerns me because of all the stress I'm having. The kids want to kill me off or something. Not gonna let that happen! They can't be that lucky! My doctor put me on high blood pressure meds also cause that is also high. And meds to lower my pulse. I hope to get these medical problems solved and done with. Then I will take a much needed vacation. LOL
Thanks for listening and reading my story. I'm sure you get tired of hearing about my problems but I feel better venting to my internet friends here. I'll try to poke my nose in more often now..............................Hugs, Lora
