Edge of Darkness Part 6

My mouth could feel the pulse screaming stop. I licked my tongue up and over the vein. The waiting warmth pulled me in like licking a warm caramel apple. I bit down letting the succulent juice fill my mouth. She pulled hard against me at first but then settled down like a drug addict would when they get that first shot up. The smell of her intoxicating and flooding me with warm. Her heart beating trying to tell her to run. Such stupid animals. I could hear the water rise against his body as he came up. He would be looking for her soon. I grabbed on to her harder holding her closer. Her body moved silently without struggle to my desires. I was her drug and she was mine. If only I could sell this drug. She smelled like fresh cut cucumbers and fake vanilla. Her blood was so fresh and clean of impurities. The fear in her was slipping away like her life. Her eyes rolled slowly away as she was growing cold. I breathed in her blood the warm blood cooling against my tongue as it greedily coxed the blood licking it up and out.

The water sloshed off his body as he called her name. “Z come on. Where are you hiding?” His feet made a lapping sounds as he trudged the lake edge looking for her. He would never find her. Well maybe in the next life he would. Her body grew colder and started to become lifeless. I felt it then. The pull from him as he tried to take her way. I would not allow her to be taken. Well at least until I was done with her. The ice of my body was melting with each beat of her heart. I could feel the darkness rising in me trying to take everything. Her eyes were closing letting a few tears fall away. They coated her lashes and then down her face. I felt it worse. He was trying to stop me. I had enough of his interference I turned on him.

I slammed him against the tree. “How dare you get in my way.” I could feel the blood lust rising in me screaming me to kill him and then take everything that was around me. “Not this way. Look she is human and so is a part of you.” I wanted to forget I was ever human. I wanted to forget what it felt like to be like her. The rage of her being human grew in me screaming for me to tear her apart. “Not any longer. That bit was burned in the fire.” The cold numbness was returning to me. I did not want to let it. Kill her. Kill her! My body knew what it wanted to feel alive. “You are still part human. You did not die in that fire and yes I pulled you out but there is so much you don’t understand. You need to move on, move beyond Ryan.” The rage built up in me. How dare he speak that name? “How can I move on? How can you ask me to let go? What have you felt? Can you feel anything?” He took a step back from me. I had wounded him with that.

“If you don’t how will you ever find yourself. If you keep going down this road you will find the true darkness in yourself. You are standing on the edge of your darkness and at any moment you could fall over that edge. Don’t run toward it. Step away from the edge. Stop chasing a ghost of what could have been. You said it yourself he was not your lover.” I could only see little sugar plums that would dance around his head when I was done with him. What did he know? “Step where to? Step into the nothingness that exists in me. My heart only beats when I kill. It is the only thing that satisfies me. That makes me alive. You should have left me to burn. I had made my peace with it.” He had stolen my one chance for peace. I was ready to let the flames consume me. To let what ever I had left in me die and end the darkness I would now spread.

“You have to listen to your heart in between the beats is when life happens. I know right now you are excited by the hunt. That is natural you woke me up. You made me alive again. I could not lose you. I still can’t lose you. I need you as much as you think you need nothing but your darkness.” He had been nothing but a zombie doing as they had said. How could he feel anything? I grab his had thrusting it to my chest. “Do you feel that? Do you know there is nothing there but a dead heart. It dose not beat. There is no life left. It is echoes of the past. I am holding on to the only thing I have. I have the darkness and blood lust. That is what animates me and it dose the same to you.”

“You are wrong. You don’t even see what is in front of your face. You need to let go of him. He is not coming back and I can not change that nor can you. He is gone. Being a monster won’t erase who you are. You are not a monster. If that were true, you would never have stopped. I watched you lay down with him trying to keep the flames from him to hold on to what little of him you had. He was already gone by the time you went to help him.” I could feel it again. I could feel the flames at my back and him in my arms. What had I done. “Help him! I cursed him. I took everything from him. I stole his soul. Monsters take souls!”

“Then if you have his soul you know that he would never see you this way. He tried to show you all along. Let him go and let him rest in peace and maybe you will find some of your own. We can start over. Let the demons go.” Start over? Doing what? What was this non-life supposed to hold for me? The only thing I had left was the darkness. I wanted it to burn through me to make me nothing but a black hole. “I don’t know how to let go. I can’t. If I let go of one piece of him, if I feel again. I wont stop. I can’t stop. He would be gone. He would fade away into nothingness and that is something he dose not deserve. I deserve that. I deserved to burn alive to the end of me.” How could he expect me to let go? I had done the darkest of things and now I could not even pay the price. Maybe this was paying the price. I would have an eternity to feel nothing but my own darkness. “Z come on where are you? Look it was just a joke! Come on” The boy was so close. I could take him and that would be the end. What fun would that be the darkness called to me. I moved away leaving Jace to pick up the pieces. Maybe he would just take the boy and this would end.

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