My Epic Poem-----Guy

And so it happens again and again
A never ending cycle of torture and pain
Of course that’s just me being melodramatic
And of course that’s just me being over poetic
And everything that I’ve ever done seems like nothing
Compared to a few words spoken from you
Let me lean back and follow the flow
Let me start from the beginning then
This way everyone shall know…
Never forgive me of these impure thoughts of mine
Lay me down and let me die
Forget me now before…just forget me now…
Evening past me by while the morning was rising
And you were there…
I needed to leave, I had to go but anywhere I turned
You were there…
With every whisper of the wind and every drop of rain
I always hoped it was you.
Such a silly little thought right
The pointless endeavor to reach the forbidden fruit
Envy…Adultery…I’ve had my share of sins
Wrath…Pride…now seems like I can’t get them off my mind
Gluttony…Sloth… these things you make me do
Greed…I’ll do anything for an outside chance at you

And one day it happens again and again
You tell me things I’ve heard a million times and more
So I refuse to believe anything at all
But so persistent you are
Telling me to let go, open up and let you in
All those thoughts and feelings that I’ve managed to hide
You want to help me, let you in and you’ll never leave me…
Never leave me… remember those words… never hurt me…
All I really want from you to never forgive me, just forget me….
After you hear something enough, its almost impossible not to give in
I did it all for you… just for you…
Yet I don’t believe in regrets so you know I would do it again and again
But in the end, I knew none of it could be true
Even after nights of passion and purest of desires
I was the one who said I have to leave… for you
Do you remember, everything that has happened
My eyes can never hide the truth; it’s why I like the dark
Sight unseen, fortunately darkness can cover all
Do you remember, everything was so dark
And you still tried to read me
Manipulation or exploitation, was any of it really for me
I still haven’t a clue as to what gain you’ve acquired
Eye for an eye… but why did you choose me
And somehow I still blame myself for anything and everything at all

Let me go into some sort of sleep, just to put my mind on ease
Why do you keep calling to me…?
Tell me what the point is
Telling me everything I want to hear, isn’t that right
Leaving everyone in the dark, leaving that one in the dark
You make me feel as if nothing ever happened
That maybe it was just a dream…
Truly gratifying and all the same… discord
I don’t exist and then I do, its getting hard to see the truth
First one to see my face in the morning… and the last at night
But my thoughts are on you the entire day
Trying to figure out if anything is there
No one else knows, no one else cares
And you try to use me… or so I think
Actually, I don’t know what it is you do
But in all the same, I don’t think you do either
Heads or tails… when you the only one who can see
In the eye of the beholder, its whatever you want it to be

I’ve tried everything I can, I’ve even tried the things I can’t
I’m solving a problem that only pertains to me
Unaffected by truth or lies and what no one knows
Leaves me to carry on all alone
I would try to wait, but you would push me away
Try to leave, and you wouldn’t let me go
To this day, you treat me like a toy
Your own personal version of a wind up dog
Say roll over… I do it for you
Beat me, mistreat me, hate me and neglect me
I’ll wait for you because I have no where to run
You hold the leash and I’m not smart enough to get free
Free from you and then I drown in thought
Free from my mind and I suffer in loss
Anything I do only negates it back to you
Tell me to speak and I wont say a thing
Tell me to move and I’ll look the other way
Tell me I’m yours… just tell me I’m yours…


I sit here and I try to think of anything other then you
And I wonder if you ever had to work that hard… for me
And of course it really doesn’t matter even if I care
You say you need me, but you don’t
You tell me don’t leave, but never give me a reason to stay
And if I ask why all you can whisper is I don’t know
Is that all you can say, is that all that’s on your mind
You ask the simple question, ‘hey you got the time’
And my mind runs through a thousand answers
Just to make it come out right
Maybe its noon, maybe I should say 12:00pm
Lunchtime or time for us to get together
You don’t even know… you don’t have a thought or care
I sit at home, alone in my room listening to that same song
Over and over again… waiting for your call… all because you said you would
And I can wait for ever and more because I know you won’t call
Try as hard as I may… forget me… it really has no meaning at all
The Prodigal Son returns … but you’re no where to be found


Back to the late nights, and I all I really want to do is leave
But because you’re you, it only takes a moment’s glance
To make me say… I never want to leave
I’ve had my fair share of those nights
Always followed by drunken memories of me trying to forget
It never did… forget me now… I’ll never forget you
As much as I try, as strong as my will
Every second with you is forced into my heart
I want to leave, I want to leave, I have to…
Back to the lies and manipulations
I still really can’t tell what they’re for
But as I look deeper into your eyes
I know your hiding something, maybe everything from me
A world shrouded in words as sweet as you
But what is the point of having any of this at all
A few memories where happiness consumed us
And thoughts that could warm a cold soul
Or maybe the fact that I’ve realized that
There is more to this world, so much more
That it is possible to still feel things, I thought I couldn’t
All these things good or bad, it’s the teachings of life
But I’ve learned this lesson again and again
And I just can’t seem to remember it
And if I had the chance to do it all over again with you … I wouldn’t





Say what you want and do what you will
I’ve already decided everything in advanced
Its all doomed to fail, but that’s what I want
Highs and lows and everything and anything between
Remember me for the remainder of the day… then forget me
Countless nights have gone by since then…
I can’t recall a single one of those countless days
Even if it blends together for the rest of my life without you
At least I know I did the thing that you needed
It may not be what you want
But the best things in life never are
Rejoice and reprise into the next part of your life
Tomorrow is the start, today is the end
Forget everything I’ve ever said
Forget anything you thought you knew
Forget everything and anything that relates to me
And the only thing you ever need to consider
When looking back, is this one little thought
Little or not, think it over long and hard
Any time and all the time
When you close your eyes at night
And try so hard to or not to think of me
All I want you to realize is that
I was never really there at all…forget me now…

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