So I've been home now for 10 days now and start Recruiters Assistance on Wednesday.
Every night I've slept at a different friends house. I've seen my family maybe 5 hours total. I can't stand being home or in my room but yet I feel like I don't fit in with my friends anymore either. I feel lost, like I don't belong here anymore. A piece of me is missing and it's still in my foot locker on Parris Island.
All my friends, family and even my friends families have given me a warm welcome home but I just don't feel like I should be here, like somethings wrong. I'm anxious, on my toes and ready to go at all times. I can't sit still, I can't slow down and I can't sleep. When I do sleep its more of a half sleep, I can here everything going on around me as I sleep.
All I can think about is how bad I want to get back to The Corps. Everyone here moves so slow and have no drive for anything like they're just going through the motions of daily life. I'm sick of hearing the petty drama and people taking each other for granted.
The other day I snapped on my Mom for reaching across my plate at the table. I lost my appetite and went to my room where I just laid there listening to music angry with the world.
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