So I've put a few posts up about my past lives recently since I was in the midst of rediscovering one of them (you can read these stories here, here, and here.) As I said in the most recent post I had discovered two of my final places lay 15 minutes from my new home. Keep in mind I have never been (in this life LOL) to this city before, its HUGE, and I have no clue where anything is and when encountering anything online about these people I had no clue where any of these places were or paid any attention to directions. Think going to DisneyWorld and not reading English for the first time...thats kinda what its like.
Anyways so I really wanted to go visit my one grave (the other life was cremated though I do intend to see where she died) around Halloween. However this is a major cemetary where many celebrites are buried and they are known for their 'theme park' antics (showing movies in the cemetary in summer; having various celebrations and what not). I couldnt find much online but I was SURE Halloween would be full of weirdos looking to talk to dead celebs. So I opted against it. In a twist of irony the moment I got there I seen a Day of the Dead celebration banner for the 27th...so I was probably right.
Like I said in my other posts this particular life I had power and success but I was not 'famous' by the definition though I was certainly affiliated with such people. And of course Im buried by some particularly a friend of mine (refer to other posts). So it was really important to me to get a moment alone.
So Id decided for many days Id like to go today. I freaked out a little over it wondering how it would be to visit my own body let alone someone very dear to me in that life and someone I know in this life as well. I also am 'cemetary shy' strictly on the basis of me and my sister have both expierenced a rash of spirits bugging us for attention anytime we go somewhere of that nature. Its not scary or bad its just annoying honestly especially if your there for a particular reason. I eventually convinced myself to go and tried to chill :p.
So back to the actual trip. I hadn't been up this way before so I didnt know where anything was. I followed the directions and arrived much quicker then I thought I would. I passed some studios on the way and everything seemed 'familiar'. Thats the thing about this particular grave. I buried my mother there that life and my friend before I finally died. So I HAD been to this actual crypt in that life...alive.
I was really worried about being disrespectful. I wondered if they had any rules or regulations on being there or flowers or anything. But I couldnt find anything and the gateman just waved me in. In a twist of irony I parked next to Mel Blanc ('Thats all folks' his tombstone says). I really wanted the map to find my grave but I had no clue where the flower shop that sold them was...ironically I had passed it (it's right by the gate).
So I started walking. Mind you I have no map and no clue where anything is. I thought it would be 'creepy' being in a cemetary or spirits would bug me (it looked like a literal funeral had just ended so souls must still be around) yet no one had. Come to think of it I didnt see ANY souls. A majority of these graves are older (for a long time the cemetary fell into disrepair and new plots were not saleable until the late 90s) so it makes me really believe a good chunk of them have reincarnated. Of course maybe other souls dont move as fast as me :p (since 1890 I've lived three times if you count this life; and only once did I accidentally take my own life). But that is truly odd for the number of graves vs other cemetaries I've been in (and a lot of their graves were old as well). Maybe celebs just find peace faster...LOL!
Anyways I kept walking and I came up on the maseloum area where I was SURE I was though I didnt feel like 'browsing' through rooms of dead people. I literally peaked in the area I WAS in though no way to know that. So I asked a secrutiy guard where the flower shop was and went back that way.
I really wanted 2 flowers: one for me and one for my friend's graves. So I was glad to find it. I knew this was going to be an expierence and to come empty handed would suck. Twist in irony the dang shop was closed for a few moments but just in time the flower lady arrived back. I got a red and a pink rose and a map and realized I had been over that way all along. Considering the size of this cemetary I find that truly amazing.
So I drove back this time (having been back by my car) right to the place I had been. I entered and immediatly chills went down my spine. I knew I was close and I wasnt sure how I felt about it. Also I mean being a psychic in a place with at least 6 rooms full of bodies there has to be SOME kind of vibe.
I tried the first corridor but realized that was wrong...as I turned the map I said to myself 'No Im in the back' and once I got the map opened right I saw I was right. So I walked back and I wish I could explain the energies going on. It was MADNESS! I knew I was close. These rooms go straight back then a small area off to the right with more crypts. I went straight back and knew right away I was to the right. I was.
I seen my crypt first then my friend's. It was HUGELY emotional. I had no clue it would hit me that way. I cant even begin to explain the feeling that overcame me. It was like wanting to drop to your knees and cry like you had just found a long lost friend. LOL in a twist of irony my crypt didnt bother me one bit...it was more seeing my friends...who I had outlived by under a year.
He bothers me a lot. Because I KNOW who he is in this life; I've literally met this person before I had that conclusion. Yet I dont 'know' this person...and I wish I did. I know later on in life I will but you have no clue given our history how hard it is to be quiet and just 'wait' that one out.
I mean we werent the only crypts in this area but I focused in on them right away. I said my name, his, and 'mommy' (for she was the crypt under me). It was just so emotional...I had no way to control it.
I didnt cry despite saying that feeling overcame me. It would be kinda silly to cry over people who even if they had lived past their 30s and 40s wouldnt be alive today and have already reincarnated. There's really nothing to mourn here...its just a huge reminder. Life changes, life goes on, and the small things dont always count. Weight loss, job worries, whether I can afford that concert ticket all PALE in comparison to having this person in my life or having a friendship so deep. A bond that can literally trancends lives.
Funnily enough we both KNEW that in our last lives too. I found some interviews with both people who stated they were certain of reincarnation and finding someone again in another life if the circumstances are right.
I left my roses 1 in each little holder. LOL I must admit Im a bit of a vain incarnater: Im quite flattered when people say nice things about my other life I left that area and went back out the hallway. The whole time I had been in that room I was overwhelmed and I seen nothing so to speak (refer to the 'ghosts' post for my theory on this). But when I left I turned back and he was waving to me in his old form. Even though I know hes incarnated and what he looks like this life every now and then he has showed up in his old form for a moment; I wasnt too surprised he did it here either LOL. He just waved and smiled; it was very sweet.
I left after one last glance (he was still there) and I was still shaking. I should have sat in my car for a few moments to gather myself because I tell you the energy was just SO intense my hands were shaking. I was completly overwhelmed...mind you not in a bad way but just an intense way. I cant imagine despite reincarnation how many people actually visit their OWN graves and they are really right (I mean every loony out there thinks their Marilyn Monroe so they would probably dispute me though I know her and I know they arent :p. Btw she's unaware of who she was LOL just for that point!)
Im not sure if I will ever go back again but I might just to say hi not that I need to remember myself and my friend has enough dang attention LOL. I knew this would be a good expierence; I just didnt know it'd be this intense.
With that thought I fear going to the next place which is the place I died in the other life I mentioned (she was cremated so no grave to visit). It wasnt just natural and it wasnt under pleasent circumstances either...so Im not sure how I'll feel though I probably wont get as close as with this (I have no desire to check her room out for the night LOL!)
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