The OBE's Are Back Again

I posted my last OBE in August of 2005 and havent had one since just a few days ago. My life has changed a lot in the past year and all for the good! My previous OBE's always happened during some of the most stressful times in my life. My life couldnt be any more perfect right now. I thought stress was responsible for triggering OBE's at times.

I was laying on my couch and dozed off close to midnight and then it happened again, another OBE. I was floating around in my living room side-ways because I remember seeing the T.V. sideways and in double vision. I got scared as I usually do because I am not fond of having these without ever trying. It takes me a minute to realize Im out of body because it's always a suprise when they happen to me. I wanted so desperately to call my mother so I willed myself to the phone and ended up floating right pass it and I went through my breakfast bar. I made a u-turn and came back through for a second try hoping to make contact with the receiver but failed again. During this OBE I remembered I couldnt make contact with objects, or so I was told. I was thinking this the whole time. I gave up on calling my mom because I realized I wouldnt be able to talk to her anyway in the astral world. Past OBE's confirmed that I cannot speak after trying so hard! I tried to calm down and tell myself there is nothing to be afraid of. I decided to make light of this OBE and tried to do something I always wanted to do, an air-summersalt. I did just that, right in the middle of my living room. I did two full rotation air-summersalts and then laughed in spite of myself. Somehow I got tangled up in my breakfast bar stool. My legs were intertwinded and all tanged up and then I felt someone pulling on my right ankle. Who was pulling on my ankle? I didnt understand that part. I saw a pair of legs laying on the floor next to me and they actually looked like my ex-boyfriends legs. Could they have been my own legs? These legs had hair on them like a mans and I know I shaved my legs so they couldnt have been mine! I was floating all over my apartment and ended up in my bedroom on the floor and then back in the living room again. I have a small 2/2 apartment. I have always been terrified of actually seeing my physical body laying on the couch while Im out of body. I have only seen my body once, the first time I ever experienced an OBE. I looked for my body during this OBE and I didnt see it. Deep down I didnt want to see it because I know it would scare me half to death. It is possible I choose to block out seeing it? I know it's there but I just dont want to see it! I dont understand why am I having OBE's again? I have never ever tried to achieve this, it has always happened naturally when I least expect it. I had another one a few days later where as usually there is a large time gap between my OBE's, sometimes months and months go by before I have another one and ONLY while I am napping, never while Im sleeping in my bed. My couch is my take-off and landing area. During this OBE I asked God to lend a hand and bring me back to my body, I didnt want to be out and I want to know who or what decides when I leave my body? I sure didnt make that decision. Why does this still happen to me? I honestly thought they were gone for good. I have been reading my bible more often and have established a wonderful relationship with God. Why didnt he listen to me when I asked him to bring me back to my body? I came back eventually but not right away when I was scared. Please help me understand. Thank you bunches!

It has confused me now.