Never makes sense. --------Guy

I feel like I'm drowing.
literal or not, the feeling is over powering.
just lost in thought
or maybe I went off road tonihgt and I'm sinking.
into this lake
Maybe me writing is just a dream.
But really, who dreams of writing?
I suppose I do because its all I ever think.
Even when I think of something differnt
I think about writing it.
I feel so hopless.
I'm drowning and I'm all alone.
I can't talk and I don't want to move.
So I'll sink to the bottom and wait.
Wait for what huh? Another person,
or until I die, maybe both
we'll see when I arive.
Every friday night I cause myself pain.
Why do I go if I know
that I'll end up wanting to vomit.
I go because... well I don't really have a reason.
It just seems like a good idea at the time.
I guess I'm so upset, because I don't know what to do.
I've been told everything that needs to be done my whole life.
now that I'm grown, I don't know what I want.
I just want to understand, who I am.
what I be, what I've seen.
Yet I feel to queasy to walk
man I can hardly even talk.
None of this makes sense
however I'll keep it anyways
to remind me of my life and how I feel on these days.

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