Exhausted

So now you’ve decided that I’m no longer in your life
It’s okay
And you’ve took away what little bit of love I had left
No, you threw it away
You took it upon yourself to push me
Right over the edge
Left me here with that dumb face I sometimes have
Puzzled, never being able to figure you out
I could have looked deeper but I was too afraid
I never wanted to see what was really going on
I couldn’t live with even just a piece of that reality
I just couldn’t accept that I would have to let go
And be alone
Pick myself up and move on
I’m not that strong
I’m not as strong as everyone thinks I am
I can’t just let go of things that I love
I hold on with every hope, dream, and desire
I believe
I believe that things can change
But they don’t
They don’t ever change
And my insanity won’t leave me to the truth of it all
I hurt so bad inside that some days I can barely awaken
I always push everyone away
So fearful that someone will see the pain inside
So ashamed and not wanting to let anyone close
I don’t know how to be happy
I’ve never been loved before
I give all I have only to find nothing in return
And I’m tired
I am so exhausted
I scream
Please, someone take me away
Please someone save me
That’s all I long for in life
Just someone to hold me
I want to free to be who I am
Free to think my own thoughts
I yearn for respect and a reason
I’m so weak and pathetic
I allowed you to control me because
I am so afraid of being alone
Please, someone hear me
Don’t leave me here alone
I just don’t want to be alone

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