*UPDATE!* I think I was violated and I have no way to prove it - Alissa

I learned the hard way that trust is something you should never give away easily. Through out my life I have learned this lesson time and time again but always refused to give in and still try and see the good in everybody, until now. My story does not start where my trust wall came crashing down but where I went against my initial feelings which lead to the events. This past Monday night was already going pretty bad. I was talking on the phone to an old friend of mine from middle school, when he asked if I would like to chill for the night. I instantly got a bad feeling and told him no and that I was tired. Reluctantly he said okay and hung up the phone. Later that night he called again. During our conversation I started hearing an odd sound. It sounded very similar to somebody hitting my bedroom window with a snow ball. In my already irritated state I went to the window and opened it to see who the trouble maker was. It was very dark outside and the lights from the house made it hard to see if anybody was outside, so I stuck my head out of the window to yell at the snowball thrower. As I stuck my head out the window to yell a huge ton of water came crashing down over my head. Being an already upset twenty year old girl I went running up the stairs to see what in the world was going on. When I reached my sisters bedroom I found her dumping the water from her turtle cage out of her bedroom window. I was fumeing! And her being the typical twelve year old bratty sister found it far more amuseing then I did. She automatically started laughing. Sending me into more of a pg13 rated rant. All the while I still had my cell phone in my hand. My friend had heard everything and through his chuckles he asked me again to go out that night to try and blow off steam. I agreed to hang out with him for a little bit then went to wash the turtle litter-filled water from my hair.

A short time after all of this I got a call from a fellow usmer. I told him about my day and also told him I was going out with a friend to blow off steam. He automatically got scared. At the time I thought he was being paranoid, but I see now I should have taken his warning more seriously.

Moments later my friend, we will call him big jumb jerk ( can not say what I really want to call him) came to my house and picked me up. We went out to eat then went to his house to watch a movie. We were watching Happy Gilmore and talking about the old days when he asked if I wanted a drink. Not thinking much of it I said sure. I didn't have to work until noon the next day so one small drink was not going to cause too much trouble.

NOT even half the drink later I started feeling dizzy. I started vomitting violently and literally had to drag myself into the bathroom. I remember hugging the toilet seat and crying then everything went black. A few moments or a few minutes later I opened my eyes again to find myself in the living room. Big dumb jerk was no where around me at the time so i called my friends, Aaron and Jon to come get me. I remember crying into the phone for them to hurry up. I did not know the appartment number but I told them how to get to the complex and that I was going to leave then to meet them at the gate. I then starting vomitting again, and I could hear the jerk screaming in the background. He said something about wasteing something then punched a hole in the wall. I dragged myself up off of the floor and again went into another black out. The rest of the night is a blurr. I remember opening my eyes a few times to see ceiling tiles, floor tiles, carpet but nothing further then that. Some time after 5a.m I woke up on my porch. My cell went off and it was Jon and Aaron. Jon was crying and I could hear Aaron freaking out in the background. I told them I was at home, but I wanted more then anything for them to stop by. When they got there I remember them both carrying me into my bedroom and then both saying something about having to teach the jerk a lesson.

The entire night I continued to vomit and this ritual continued all through the next day, ( I called off work) and carried on into a small part of the following day ( Wednesday). Aaron did call me the following day to see how I was. I told him I was sorry that I could not make it to the gate and that was when he told me that he had waited there for over three hours....Three hours.. I have no idea what exactly happened within those three hours.

I inspected my clothes from that night to see if I could find anything and all I found was a very small trace of blood. Which having ovarian cysts is not all that uncommon for me. But other then that I have no proof. I feel as though the unthinkable did happen and I have no way to prove it. I am lost and confused and feel I have nobody to turn to. I feel as though I have been violated yet I have no distinct memory of being so....

I trusted this person. I had always heard the warnings to always watch your drink, be careful who you are with.. but I never thought I had to do so when I was just chillen at a friends house. Especially one I have known since sixth grade..



UPDATE!!!!!!

Hey everybody. I went to the hospital that night like I promised. They found traces of GHB in my system. It has been confirmed that, that is what was used on me. I had nearly 3 times the normal dose used on anybody and to put it bluntly the man told me he was surprised I was even alive. Somebody must really care about me up there for me to have gotten through this one..... As for the rest of the tests. There was not enough evidence to actually accuse him of rape. I had some minor bruises in that area but it is hard to say exactly where they came from. But they could not find any type of DNA from him what so ever. I have not decided if I should press charges or not. I could get him for drugging me but things are a little more complicated then that. He belongs to a very bad crowd. His room mate is actually my ex-boyfriend ( anybody who knows me knows about him) and well my ex is bad news. I know if I get involved with this even more that I will be putting myself in even more danger. I want Jake to pay for everything he has done but I do not know if I can willingly put myself through even more. So at the moment I am still thinking about everything. They can hold all the evidence for 30 days....So I have 30 days to decide which way I want to go.

Thank you all for your support in everything. I have trouble going to anybody for help but you guys were right there willing to help with everything as soon as I let you know I needed help. Thank you so much. You have no idea how much you all mean to me.

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