Well, last week I had posted a story about a dream I had had that ended up coming true. Well now I can't get this certain friend, I'll call him "Joe", out of my head. He's one of the reasons I couldn't sleep on Christmas Eve, he's the reason I get dressed up even when I'm just going in town to the store... just because I might see him there and I would regret it if I didn't look my best when he saw me. "Joe" and I have been friends for a few years and I knew from the first time I saw him that I cared deeply for him and I know he cares about me but I'm not 100% sure its the way I care about him. We both know there is something between us and I know that I would LOVE to further the investigation but the problem is is that he's not exactly single. And he's been with this girl for awhile now so I have doubts that he'll actually break things off with her, but I know that the next time we're alone the events of my dream towards "Joe" will reoccur(sp?). I'm good friends with the girl he's with and I have no intention of breaking them up but I can't help but wonder what would happen if he were single, if he wasn't seeing this girl. I would have stopped this when it first started if it weren't for the fact that he is the only guy I can know so well but I still get intimidated around him. When he calls me and I see that its him my heart jumps in my throat and it makes it so hard for me to answer the phone and say hey. I go over to his house almost everyday after basketball practice and hang out and watch our favorite show, Fear Factor. I spend the whole day during school anticipating getting to go over to his house. I know you're prolly thinking that I see him during school but he doesn't go to my school so the only chance I get to see him is after practice. He is the only guy that I will drop everything for if he needs me. If he calls just to talk about things I will listen, even if it goes on for hours. I don't know if this is love or not but whatever it is its driving me crazy feeling this way for a guy I obviously can't have. Help me...I don't wanna end our friendship, I don't wanna stop before I find out what happens between me and "Joe", but I don't wanna set myself up for a brokenheart. And before you tell me to tell him how I feel I have to say this... he's also the only guy that I'm too afraid to talk to about that. I could tell everyone else in the world how I feel towards him but I can't tell him. I'm too afraid that if I do then my heart will get broken and its been broken too many times already. Help me... I'm lost and confused and I don't knwo what to do.
Thanks for listening and caring enough to give me advice... God Bless!! (V)agical(V)yst AKA Michelle You can join Unsolved Mysteries and post your own mysteries or
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