It Still Hurts............ by- tomevans

I thought that 'time would heal these wounds'. I really believed that if I just trudged through the lonliness and emptiness- one day I would wake up and the pain would have subsided. One rainy day after another, one misstep after another, one stumble after each fall- and the clouds would break open to reveal the sunshine. I know now that I've only been fooling myself. I can't escape you and what you mean to my broken heart. The songs on the radio continue to haunt me. Memories still remain vivid. It still hurts.........

I've prayed for someone to come along and take your place in my life, yet I refuse to let anyone else in. I can't erase all of the laughter and nights spent holding you tight in my arms. Even in a room full of people, I feel completely alone. It still hurts.........

I drive to get you off my mind, but there's so many things that remind me of the years we spent together. I have tried to break out of this, I really have. I put on my best smile everyday and I try to carry on as if there's not a bother in the world, but it's no secret, it still hurts......

My dreams have been put on hold and my favorite songs are filled with sadness. My tables are set for one, my arms are empty every night. I continue to carry this weight, and it grows heavier with every step, it still hurts.........

The Christmas lights that used to sparkle in your beautiful green eyes are just an afterthought. The holidays aren't full of joy and tradition anymore, they're full of regret and remorse, I had your love and didn't realize I had the love that I've spent a lifetime trying to find. I wish I had a 2nd chance now that I know what I've lost. It's all my fault- but it still hurts........

I hold on to hope and that is what keeps me going. Maybe someday- we'll be in love again and live out our lives together, it's a hope that I refuse to let die. Maybe I'm seeing that, which is not there, but I see a woman that still loves me. I see a woman that doesn't know how to start putting it back to the way it use to be. They say patience is a virtue. I pushed you out and it may take forever to pull you back, I'm willing to wait- but it still hurts.......

The journey we shared was filled with each and every emotion. We ran the gambit. We left no stone unturned, no road untraveled, no feelings unexplored. Life's too short, but without you in my life- everyday seems so long and drawn out. I have never loved anyone so much, I have never felt so lonely. It's been a long time since we went our separate ways, but it still hurts..........

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