Shadows of my mind ~Angel Wolfe~

Shadows of My Mind
by Elaine Patton

I saw you today in the shadows of my mind
lurking softly within the dreams of my heart
as I lay calmly downto rest.
Once upon a time, a fairy tale same to life
in my heart as we shared good and great.
When you told me you loved me
I was taken to a land of enchantment
and love that I could share with no one
else but you.
I never felt nor would I ever want to feel from anyone else the love I have for you that gently decorates my life with the beauty of you.
You opened up a new avenue for me to explore
with your caring words of encouragement
with the structure of your love that will never end
of the beauty of feeling love with you
that I could never feel without you..
I never knew that love could be so real
or so wonderful or so full of the reality of dreams.
I just knew beyond the shadow of a doubt,
that I was in a world I had never experienced
before the magical moment you declared your love for me.
I had been hurt so many times before and my life had been trampled by the herds of men that
did not understand and would never stay with me
long enough to see if I was worth the effort
until you came along and showed me that love was not a hazard but an asset that would always
blend within my life a joy that could only be attained by the perfection of what we feel..

Love was never safe.
It was full of hidden holes that asked so much more
than just a simple love.
I know love with you is so vastly different
from the rest of the loves of my life.
I am more complete within myself because you have shown me the value I have.
Love is now so full of charm dreams simple things
and the delight of one's heart because I can share it all with you.

I tried to not keep my distance but it was so hard to trust that it was real.
and that you would not abandon me.
I know you are just as afraid as I am that this could be real forever and that my love does not come packaged
with abandonment and rejection, so you kept your distance too.
There are so many fences we both have to leap
and at times, they appear to be insurmountable
at this juncture in time but with enough patience and caring, we will overcome.
I want to take the time to go around it all
but some of the barriers are solid and can only be left behind as you begin to trust me to never go away.
I have time and patience because you are worth waiting from now until the day I die to have you in my life and your emotional distance right now is staying in your heart
from the fears you harbor.

Those fences will come down in time as you realize that my love is real and I am not going anywhere.
Our fears tend to protect us and keep us both securely inside a wall that was hard to penetrate.
I want to scale over the walls of my heart and leap
over the boundaries of yours.
I want to leap over them all to show you that love is not a risk that needs to cultivate fear but a gentle process that brings joy and fulfillment to our lives.
I tore my heart so many times in the process of trying one more time.
I did burst through so many barricades and barriers
to finally accept the love I feel for you and it was all pure and gentle love.

My arms are open wide as is the path to my heart and soul.
I never want you to feel a need to go on to greener pastures and leave me behind in your life.
I know you care and love me with all of your heart.
You are just afraid to let me know.
You keep me at arms length at times, so what you can retain you and make sure I cannot hurt you.
I understand that one well.
I have teetered on this tightrope of what to do with my love and it keeps coming back to you
and need for you is so great.
I never want to forget what is important in my life.
I never want to lose track of how to balance my life
between the love I have for you and how to grow beyond my fears.
I guess I need to learn to balance by putting
one foot in front of the other and going slowly
until the next time.

I love you and you are worth the risk
that I will be hurt.
For without the risk. I could never experience the love and gentleness of your heart.
I could never experience the whole person of you
and all you are and mean to my life.

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