~This is way better then Pandoras Box!!!!~(happy dance!!)~*Phe*~

I got a box today, it's a BIG box and enclosed were 3 book (over 1300 pages between them) 3 binders with (over 300 pages each) 6 thick folders of course work and instruction, 1 hour long cd, 4 cases of audio tapes (ranging from 6-12 tapes in each case) and a whole bunch of other stuff lol....yes my course has arrived and as I pulled out item after item I wondered what in the world I've gotten myself into!!! Despite this incredibly overwhelmed feeling, I have a big stupid smile on my face with the thoughts that beyond these materials lies those little letters that I can put at the end of my name and that clinic I can one day start.. Beyond this overflowing box of intimidation is a career, support for my family, knowledge that I finally achieve something after being stagnant for so long.

Once I finish all this reading, research and papers I will only have my doctorate ahead ...*she says as if its a walk in the park* School has always been importnat to me and tho this isn't my dream career, but it is a step in one of my feilds of intrest. I didn't get to college or university, I was accepted to several but was too afraid of failure to ever actually go and the idea of paying back a student loan for a carreer I might come to hate really provided a road block. So now I'm 26, at home with my daugther, and yeah I love her but I need a little more then seasame street to stimulate me lol. Despite having a diverse background of experiances I feel right now if I had to work I would only be able to get a job at a coffee shop...if I was lucky. I don't want that. I've put in my time at cruddy jobs & helping someone else get their new house and new car while I barely scrape by, so if and when I do go to work again I want it to be something where I can control my life and fate.

I know I only opened a box today. But what's inside changes everything!!!

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