I still can not get over this please help +cosmic freak+ *WARNIG LONG*

...:::WHERE IT ALL BEGAN:::... it is a long story but make it short a girl has alway been after me she hates my guts when she first came to my school in year 3 I showed her around the school and became her friend she left me out and stuff though she has alway been horrilbe to me she once made some people lock me in a class room she said in the begining she just did not want to be my friend but the thing is after the fight she kept wanting to borrow money from me and me to do things for her and she would always treat me like dirt. she said she hated me alot people would ask her why. I would tell her to cut it out and she said "you know you remind me of linden" (A teacher at our school who is really bossy) and she would always say hurtfull stuff then exspect us all to be nice to her or she is gonna rip off our heads.

the probblem being is towards hight school I started to tell her to well shove it after awhile I was sick of her treating me like dirt in year 9 this is what I can not get over. she ended up turning everyone aginst me.

...:::HERE IS THE STORY TELL ME IF I DID WRONG:::... she had just come back after she had run away from home (problems at home) and she was calling me some names I should not mention here. and I put my lunch down and and when I came back I saw her eating it she had eaten it all and I had to pick up the runbish and everyone elses rubish *AAAARRRRRRR!!!* so yeah I called her soemthing back in a class room I sat down a desk and she said "get off my desk you (insert bad word)" I said "no you dumb (insert s word)" she then bagged me out for it. people told me what I said was slack. I said she was saying stuff about me she claimed she was only joking the problem is I have a reputation for not taking a joke the reason I can't take one is because when ever I say one people asume I am being serious so I do not know if they are joking. I do not know what happened first. the reason I asumed she was not joking was because ok after year of her treating me like dirt is is really hard to know when she is and is not being serious you just asume she is serious.

any way this is where all hell broke lose she turned everyone aginst me telling everyone what A horrible person the way she discrbed me was nothing like who I am she said the way i thought proved me to be bad. calling me a spoilt ritch kid a snob and stuff sayinjg I had always snubed her (well I wonder why) saying all the stuff she did to me over the years was all a joke. you know what I wonder why she took 7 years to say she was just joking and you know what what perfect timing to finaly admit it when everyone was saying I could not take a joke. she would always say stuff like I dserved what was happening she would finaly learn. she said I was just some dumb blond girls like me Are gonna one day learn looks ant inportant. I suck up to teachers. one day i was sitting in class minding my own bussnes and she caame up to em and said "it is so unfair the rest of us work hard and you always pass because you suck up to the teachers you are such a dumb blond and yet you manage to pass because you got ritch perents" and I was like "I do not suck up I do my best at work" and some other girl who come from a way more wealthy back round than me said "it is true you know" and they would say stuff like you are a horrible person yet good stuff happens to you and she would be there insaulting me then I would say stuff back and people would be like "don't be slack" and she was saying I was being mean to her because she gets drunk on the weekend and I kept trying to tell her it was simply because she treated me like dirt. but she would not listen and you know what if she is gonna give me trobble because I do not drink then i think she has got the probblem she would always stir me up so i would get angery at her then make me look like the jerk I ended up getting so angery at her i said stuff like "no wonder your perents kicked you out" and i slaped her i had no one else on my side I had to and she kept going she kept saying stuff like "I fell so sorry for your perents" and saying stuff like "trust me your perents must be so exusted you are always screaming and kicking" and she kept saying stuff like she was going to get her friends to beat and rape me and she was going to put me under the tire of their car and flattern me and stuff

...:::NOW WHAT IS HAPPENING:::... the thing that make me so furious is she exspects me to do nothing while she treats me like garbadge she acts like she is in the right when ok if she is going to treat me bad I am not gonna be a nice person to her I am going to scream at her I am probbly going to slap her to if she is going to treat me like garbadge when in ther beginging I did nothing to her and you know what i am not a snob people even say I can be to nice sure i am stubern. but you know what if she is gonna dish it out she better take it back.

why can't I get over this I do not care if someone hates me she just make me feel like such a horrible person. like i was nothing like I did nto deserve all the stuff i had in life i admit I am lucky and she has had it tough but i can not help what happened to either of us I am not the card dealer of life. she turned everyone i trusted aginst me and merlishiously attacked me. making me fell like i was a brat if i said something back. the thing I know she can be really horrible to people and dose not relize it people even say she dose it. ok I had my whole year aginst me even my own friends and she was being horrible and to me of course i am gonna get angery. she did stuff like she would say stuff and I would say stuff back and then she would go "oh i am sorry your magesty" and stuff like that

...:::WHAT PEOPLE SAY:::... to day when ever I bring it up people either say "she was onyl joking she was not that bad" or "don't worry about what she said she is gone now" (she left the country thank god) and "don't feel bad she was dishing it out she deserved it"

the thing is the she dose not even know the real me. she just asume I am snob and a bimbo cause I have bland hair and have quite a bit of money. she wants me to realize I am the person who she see's she wants me to let her remodel me I am so sick of it she has left but I sriously can not get over it I get so angery I get violent I seriously hate her if she was reading this she would just start giving me some big speach about how I should learn to take a joke and quite being a brat she went to far even if that was true for gad sake turning everone I love aginst me for gosh sake she went way to far and wont even admit she has done wrong to me in the past. I fell like no one is listening to me about this I hate myself after what she did I hate myself so much i kept asking ym self maybe i am snob maybe I am spoilt I kept asking ymself these qwestions but I still knew the truth if she dishes it out it is gonna come back at her.

is it really that bad of thing if someone can not take a joke. I mean yes i take things personaly but she has been giving me trobble for year of course i am gonna asume she is being serious.



WHY CAN'T I GET OVER IT DID I DO SOMTHING WRONG.

thanks for listening.

+cOsMiC FrEaK+

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