This Is My Story: In Memory Of Victoria Ann @}-- My Mom Princess)i(Light

Hi everyone, well this post is long overdue and I feel now is the right time to post. Something happened today that reminded me of someone very close and special to me. I was sitting on the couch watching tv for only about 10 minutes and when i got up a quarter fell on the floor, it came out of nowhere. When I picked it up and looked at the date it was 1994.... the same year my mom passed away.

Sometimes little things like this happen to me, and I think she is almost telling me she is here with me. Sometimes I smell a certain perfume that reminds me of her and it comes out of nowhere, other times I swear I just feel as if she is sitting right next to me.

When I was ten years old my mom passed away to melanoma skin cancer. She was diagnosed with skin cancer earlier and it went away after they removed it, but it came back and was fatal. Her doctor misdiagnosed her which left the cancer undetected for some time (he knew about her past) and when they finally found out it was too late. She went into the hosptial and six days later passed away on October 10, 1994. I was ten and my little brother was five.

It has been very rough growing up without her, but I thank God we have such a strong and loving family. My grandma helped raise us when my dad was at work. He is a NYC firefighter (retired now) and used to work 24 hour shifts down in the Bronx. So we would spend a lot of time with Grandma and Grandpa. Holidays were hard because she was the life within our house. I have old home videos of us all when we were all still together. Pictures of our last vacation together. Pictures of Girl Scouts and Communion. Well this hurt my dad in more ways then I can explain. My mom was his true love. It hurt me everytime he cried, everytime I overheard him say "it should have been me" My family was shocked and devestated.

Somehow through it all we all pulled through and made it. I'm not sure how, but we did. What hurts me most is I only remember certain things, I wish I could remember everything. I remember she used to make chocolate chip cookies for us all the time and for school (wish I could make them :p) I remember sleeping in her room on hot summer nights with the ac- we would all stay in the one room watching movies and eating popcorn, I remember going swimming, going to the mall and spending time together- we were becoming friends, I remember we used to go to Bingo with my grandma, she would sometimes take me to work, she bought me a typewritter because I wanted to be like her and write..... she did everything for me.

But most of all I remember her smile and her beauty. I swear she is an angel. She was the most loving, caring mom I could ever ask for. She had this glow and magic about her that could make anyone smile. She was a normal everyday person with a golden heart. I am not mad about what happened, and even through this I found enough faith to keep going. I only wish I could have said "until next time" not goodbye. The last time I seen her was in the hosptial and I didn't know how serious it was, and we brought her dinner and I gave her my doll. She gave me a hug and said she loved me and I never seen her again. My dad was with her when she passed away.

If I could tell her one thing, it would be this: You are the best mother anyone could ever have, I am so blessed to have been your daughter, and even if I knew what was going to happen, I wouldn't want things any other way, because I love you, forever. I know your around and until next time.... see you in heaven.

Everyone, please never take anyone for granted, we never know how special they are until they are gone.

Victoria Ann (March 14, 1963 - October 10, 1994) In God's loving arms always

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