Date: 4/26/2004 10:58:00 PM
From Authorid: 49091
I can honestly say that I was an aneroxic for 2 years and it messed my stomach up so bad it was unbelieveable! I ate once a day, something so small I could barely taste it. My stomach no longer growled, it just...stopped. I was having killer pains at first and a lot of nausea. I lost 11 pounds one week while I was sick and on steroids for my asthma ( steroids are suppose to make u gain weight) But when it started, it was hard to get off. I was off for a year, but now im back for my 3rd year. Dont ask me why, one day I just stopped eating and let my stomach growl and when I ate, I ate very little and thought, wow, this is kool im not eating so much. I am currently 137 lb and hatin it. My goal is to be 125-130 TOPS. I was a size 3 in 8th grade, now im headin into a 7 and im n my last month of 9th grade! I am so use to being skinny that I am resorting to aneroxica again. My boi and best friend know that I was an aneroxic and they both get on my case a lot about it. But now they dont know. And I dont want them to. I eat normal in front of them, but when im at skool I have a milk or juice for lunch and now n then a small bag of chips which i eat half of then pass on to my "starving friends". I have to eat/drink milk at skool cause if I dont I ge tlight headed n pass out,which I dont want to do. I dont want to eat or pass out, but its one or another. I dont like beong an aneroxic, but I an't help it. it's so addicting to get off of. My mom n dad dont know. My mom thinks I lost all that weight from weihgt watchers. I went frm size 13 going on + to a size 3 in 6 months, but I continued to not eat. I have to say, eating seems to get in the way, and thats another reason. I dont have time to eat. As we speak, im typin a report and snackin on apple slices that been here for over 2 hours now. I just dont have the time anymore. I wish I could talk longer, but I took some pills to sleep n im dozin off fast. PM me and i can tell u more. *huggs*-Sarah  |
Date: 4/26/2004 11:11:00 PM ( From Author )
From Authorid: 20956
Thanks very much for sharing all this sarah, its very much appreciated. I hope you get 'better' soon *hugs*  |
Date: 4/27/2004 3:52:00 AM
From Authorid: 58334
I had a friend who had it. She wouldn't eat for days and lived on water. But she isn't anymore, which I'm happy for.  |
Date: 4/27/2004 4:14:00 AM
From Authorid: 62085
i think it is the result of not only the people around you, who ridicule weight, but basically media, advertising etc. Noone wants to be like that. It is a result of social pressure, mental, and even tricles over to the male , female relationships. Not so bad if a guy is overweight, heck look at Tony Saprano scoring chicks. But a girl is given a media projected image she has to fit, otherwise society finds her unattractive. How sad is this? Its called the Grand Illusion. Sorta like a line from the song titled Grand Illusion by Styx--- "they'll show you photographs, of how your life should be, but there just someone else's fantasy". Before you can truely heal, the ones around you must heal too, and that means they must accept you for who you are, -- not what they want you to be.. Peace always-- knightmare~  |
Date: 4/27/2004 6:24:00 AM
From Authorid: 24924
Eating disorders are found in all age groups, but appears to be most common in young women. There are so many and varied levels with Anorexia; and often there are subdiagnosis's or symtoms of other disorders in addition to. For example, many will have bullimia as well. I've had a milder version of Anorexia for many years. I am not bullimic, and never was, but then I've never been overweight either. MY problem is that I just simply hate all the time, the hassle it is to buy food, prepare food, time taken to eat, the clean up, and all that kind of thing. I'd rather be doing something else (feeding my brain instead of my stomach). To me, there are as many reasons/causes for these disorders, as there are symptoms and diagnosis. I eat in one or two weeks what most normal people eat in a day, most of the time. It has been this way for so long, I can't imagine myself ever eating "normal" like most other people. If I DO eat normal on occasion, then I am so bloaty and miserable afterward. Tied in with MY disorder, is my aversion to germs and contaminants, therefore I refuse to eat food from fast food places, so ok, that means I have to go to the fresh produce at the market, schlep it home, clean and scrub and grate and chop, and steam and broil and....well, you get the idea. Accck! often I just say: later...I'll go to the store later....I'll eat....later....and then later doesn't come. It is not so simple to say I don't want it to be this way, and I WANT it to be normal. Not that simple at all.  |
Date: 4/27/2004 9:32:00 AM
From Authorid: 15394
I suffered for years... 5'7 and a whopping 98 pounds for a while... it was ignored in my teens by myself and my family and I didn't really know at that time that I was anorexic... I simply didn't eat, and if I did I would eat only lettuce or my favorite, canned mushrooms. I got dizzy when I would stand, passed out on a few occasions, and suffered from awful bouts of depression along with it. I realized much much later in life, that alot of what I was feeling had to do with control issues. I felt often out of control and could certainly control the food put into my mouth, thus I found relief. Many different psychological issues have plagued my life since childhood and each time I deal with something new, it is like peeling an onion, getting down to the cause of what makes me who I am today... One thing I would like to say in regard to this disease, is that we have a CHOICE, and often do not feel like it. Always we have options available for control, but feel like there are none. Talking things through be it with friends or with therapists is a more valuable tool than most people realize... Hope this helped with the project.  |
Date: 4/27/2004 1:36:00 PM
From Authorid: 55297
i was anorexic. i hid food in odd places like my socks or my drink.... i didnt think i was fat, i just had no desire to eat. so they told my parents that i had anorexia nervosa. i went from 80 pounds to about 60 pounds and no one could make me eat. i started going to a shrink and she helped me a lot. if i gain any amount of weight between visits, she'd but me anything i wanted, within reason of course. i havent overcome this, and this was 6 years ago. i still struggle with the desire to eat or if i even want to eat now. most of the times i do eat, on my own free will, but sometimes, like today, i have to force myself to eat. its getting easier everyday, at first it was really hard, because i had no desire to eat. then, i started liking food again and wanting it. some days i wish that it never happened and some days im glad it did. it made me stronger and more aware of who i am. i dont think i will ever be a recovered anorexic, just like they say about cutters, "you are never a recovered cutter, only a recovering one" and thats the way it is with this disease. and i was really depressed too and i cut myself, thats where i got the cutting hting from. i hope i helped.  |
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Date: 4/27/2004 2:39:00 PM
From Authorid: 24924
It irritates me to no end, when there are those who say someone with Anorexia is "just looking for attention". To those, I would ask: LQQK at the flipside, and tell me if you think people who gorge themselves, medicate themselves with huge amounts of food? Morbid obesity is far more rampant in our society. |
Date: 4/27/2004 7:59:00 PM
From Authorid: 29534
I have Anorexia, I have had for as long as I can remember. For me it wasn't a choice, I have heard for some it is. It was my way of coping with my life. And for a while I thought I had control over it, but I didn't it had control over me. Once you have Anorexia you always have it, but it can go into remission. But it stays with you always. Trauma, stress, low self-esteem are just a few things that can set someone in remission back into it. I'm 5'3 and I weighed 75 pounds almost 8 years ago. I am now at 110 which is still under weight. My body frame is of medium size and it doesn't go with my bones. Some things I still have a problem with eating are: chicken, hamburger, anything with bones in it or fat on it. I pick at my food, cut in little peices to make it look like more. Do to having the disease for so long, and not getting it taken care of I have problems with my bones, my teeth are bad, my immune system isn't the greatest. Had I have known this years ago and not stayed in denial I wouldn't have ruined my body. My Parents didn't see a problem and blamed it on a high metabolism, or she just isn't hungry. I think a part of it is that they didn't see the signs. And didn't know what to look for. It had become a part of me. A constant battle between like to people. I know that sounds crazy, but in my mind I had a part of me telling me I had to eat to live and the other telling me not to, I didn't need food to survive. And to this day I battle it, but the difference is I realize that I can fall back at any given moment and not think twice about it. I was a Binger and Anorexic, which means sometimes I would eat enough for 3 people in one setting and then not eat for days. Then I'd go back to not eating without binging. What has helped bring me out of it is that I had/and have found people who cared enough about me to see that something was wrong and help accept that I had Anorexia, loved me enough to want me to stay alive and nurse me back to health. I have never had to go into a Hospital due to it thank God. Had been for people caring about me, I would probably be in a Hospital right now or dead. I think the first step to recovering from it is accepting you have a problem then seeking help. I also went through years of therapy for it. And have learned what triggers to watch out for, and to catch myself if I start to fall back into it. I hope I have helped in some ways. Oh another thing I stayed constantly busy doing something, never sat down long enough to think about anything. The hunger pains that normal people get when they are hungry, I still have not completely regained. I lost those as well. My monthly vistors quit visiting as well. *hugs*  |
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Date: 4/27/2004 8:08:00 PM
From Authorid: 29534
I also now have ulcers of the stomach. And to this day if I miss a meal or more a day I loose weight quickly. And it's very hard to gain weight and keep it on. Got Bronchitis and Walking Pneumomia when I was 17, and 75 pounds then. Due to that I now have Asthma. And get Bronchitis very easily. *hugs* |
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Date: 4/27/2004 8:21:00 PM
From Authorid: 24924
One of the hardest things to understand, and to combat, and overcome, is this thing of self image. I'm strong enough in my mind, mentally, to KNOW when it is getting a little out of hand, and its playing tricks on me or something. Like, when many people who are complimenting me, or commenting about "My, you're so thin"; and I'll be like looking in a mirror later, and all I see is fat. Now, I know that something is messed up, when those thoughts start up, right? NO one is going to always being saying you're so thin, if you're NOT, right? So I try hard to remember that; even though it is hard, very hard. It takes mental toughness, and determination sometimes for sure. Thanks, Leana, I can identify with your picking at foods. I USED to be really bad about that; until a boyfriend one time sat me down and told me exactly what it looked like to OTHERS who were looking on. I'm glad he took the time and cared enough to try to get me to see some reality of it all. Now, when I see certain behaviors in others like that, my heart goes out to them, and there have been several that I've talked to in the same caring way that he talked to me. |
Date: 4/28/2004 4:33:00 AM
From Authorid: 19460
From 8th grade to 11th grade I pretty much lived on one Pepsi and a snack bag of doritos a day. My parents thought I was eating at school, and thought I was skipping supper becuase I was tired from studying so hard. My cousin taught me to go to sleep if I had hunger pangs. It worked but then I felt horrible when I woke up. I didnt have any energy at all! I went from weighing 145 (im 5'8" to weighing around 105 or 110 lbs, which for my build is very very skinny. Naturally big boned does not look pretty at 110 lbs, let me tell ya! It got to the point that kids at my school were starting rumors that I was dying of cancer, that I had AIDS, and that I was addicted to drugs! At one point I couldnt sleep on my stomach because I would wake up with huge bruises on my hips. I bruised very easily. If you just poked me I would get a huge bruise. My mom thought my boyfriend was beating me after she saw the bruises from him tickling me. in the 11th grade I got pregnant, which was a blessing in many ways, I guess you could say. I had to go on bed rest in my 4th month because of toxemia, and gained 78 lbs. After he was born, I lost back down to around 160 and looked really good (for my body size). It nearly killed me to look in the mirror though. After he was born I dindt have time to go to sleep when i was hungry. And I also didnt have time to be tired all the time. If you go to my profile, you will see now that I have no starving issues anymore LOL my husband said he would just ring my neck if I ever started that business again LOL  |
