Explanation to "Please Mommy, Please." :( --by Emi

*deep sigh*

"Hemolytic anemia means you don't have enough red blood cells. If you are too tired or have yellow skin or your urine is reddish brown, tell your doctor right away. Hemolytic anemia is very rare, but can get dangerous very quickly."

Now, for those who don't know, my mom already has a disease:

****MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS (MS) A disease of the central nervous system that usually first appears between the ages of 20 and 40, and affects women twice as often as men. MS is the leading cause of disability among young adults.

Symptoms: Numbness, weakness, tingling or paralysis in one or more limbs, impaired vision and eye pain, tremor, lack of coordination or unsteady gait and rapid involuntary eye movement. A history of at least two episodes of a cluster of symptoms is necessary for a diagnosis of MS. Because MS affects the central nervous system, symptoms may be misdiagnosed as mental illness.

Treatment: no cure as of yet, but many drugs that can help reduce symptons and attacks.***

Alright.. well, I was never very happy with that one as it is. I watch my mom collapse, go to the hospital, be put on IV. People wonder why I never have a ride anywhere, and it's because I won't test my mom. If she gets dizzy in the car, she could get herself KILLED.

Don't tell me it's not a big deal. Come live in my dang house for a week, and THEN tell me it's not a big deal! (NOTE: I wrote this for my younger friends on Live journal who shrug it off.. I know the people here at USM are more understanding with illnesses... but my friends at school aren't)

Mom mentioned to me this weekend that if I don't use to the blood that I need to give for my surgery, then they'll be using it on a transfusion for her. And I may need to donate bone marrow for her. I'm the closest match to her. Justin can't donate because he's a positive blood type, and as an A-, mom and I can both only take negative blood types.

10% death rate.

Doesn't seem like it's that huge, but to me it is. That's too much. Way too much for comfort. It's a lot higher than the death rate of Multiple Sclerosis.

Mom tells me we're lucky they caught it early, or there would be more trouble.

They are going to check for any INTERNAL BLEEDING.

The fact that my uncle and my grandma are completely freaked out is what freaks me out. Mom was VERY upset when she found this out. She doesn't upset easily on most of this type of stuff because she has dealt for so long with her MS. I have seen so much happen, and she has been so strong.

And now... she's worried.. and I am too.

I love my mom. I need her... My family can't lose her... I really think it would emotionally kill me and my Daddy... no matter how strong we could both be... it wouldn't change how much it would hurt.

All four of my family members at my house fight with depression (Justin and Daddy just don't much admit it). We have each other, and that's what helps.

I don't ask for too much guys.. and I wouldn't ask for any prayers if I wasn't so scared... illness like this doesn't make me cry much.. but I've been sobbing...

Please... just... please... *cries*

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