Feeling.....lost ++Nimiwae++

What do you do when you're feeling so out of place and so lost and you badly want to talk about it with someone, but you can't? I don't even know where to begin...I know why I feel the way I do, lost in a sense, but I can't even begin to explain it all, because honestly I don't even know. I mean, I do know, but....see where it gets confusing??

I've already had a semi-panick attack tonight and I did last weekend too. I haven't had one for nearly 7 years and now I'm getting them again. Well, I;'ve only had one, and it was so bad I had to go to the hospital because I couldn't breather. But I had small and I was upset about something.

But now, I'm not upset, I'm just feeling so out of place, but not in the sense you would think. I mean, I have friends and family and nothing is wrong with any of that and it isn't the typical teenage thing that I'm going through. I've been crying a lot and people will try and tell me it's hormones but I KNOW it's not. I know why I cry, but where do I begin?

I can't even explain it to anyone because it's one of those things that only makes sense in your head because you have all the details and you know if you tried to explain them to anyone they wouldn't understand at all and be confused or just shrug it off. I can't even explain out loud to mysef, that's how utterly confusing it is.

So why am I posting this? I guess I just needed to get this off my chest and let people know how I feel. I feel a little bit better now getting that off my chest. Not that I said much about what was bothering me, but the fact that something was bothering me...

Not really expecting many replies to this, LOL. Afterall how could you respond to something like this? Gosh I don't even know!

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