Family of Pain...Predictor

Why can't you see the pain you cause?
The scares of anger and pain you've brought
Can't you tell you are killing me inside
With all your little tricks and lies

You are my family, adn I wish I could be
But instead I feel alone and the need to bleed
You say I'm mistake, and abomination to you all
When I'm just a person, that is ready to fall

Alone in the dark, tears stream down this face
Not knowing what to do, always in a daze
No where to turn, No where to hide
My life has started to feel all empty and blind

My dreams have left me, My concious is gone
All my humanity has now been disolved
Hiding the emotions I feel deep within
Now lying dormant under a thick skin

Afraid to lash out, or break down
Afraid to tell friends for how it sounds
Not wanting to show how anger filled I am
I just keep it all held in

For to show these emotions would make me break down and cry
To show these emotions, would darken even the bluest of skies
All I wanted was a family that I felt apart of you see
But instead I have a broken branch on the tree

I know I'm gay, and yes it's a fact
But you always have to remind me of that
You use it as a weapon to hurt me and cause pain
But you never see my tears fall like the rain

What will it take to make you all happy with glee
Would it be my death, now wouldn't that make you all free
No more abomination to look at and abuse
For all your so called mistakes would be through

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