I did something nice....for myself.....Souldrifter

Many, many years ago, back in the day when I was a teenager, I used to play several different musical instruments. Not that I was extemely achomplished at any of them but it was "my thing" to do. I played piano and folk quitar pretty badly. I played violin in the county orchistra pretty good for several years. But the one instrument that I was the best at was the flute. I started lessons at 10 and by the time I was 15 I could sight read anything and when I was 18 I almost made a carreer out of it but my path didn't go that way.

Playing the flute was something that got me througe a difficult adolescence. When ever I was troubled I would go to my room and play for hours until I felt at peace and at my house I found the need to do that on a daily basis. I put alot of soul into my practice and somehow it not only calmed me but perhaps my family as well. They never complained about the noice I was making. This all payed off when I had a couple of successful solos in the high school band concerts. If I did anything to make my parents proud it was my flute playing.

But to them it was not feasable to make a carreer out of it. Not that I'm blaming them that I didn't. I was EXPECTED to get married and get a normal job and that is what I did. By time I was 20 I had put the flute away and never touched it again. That was almost 25 years ago, the instrument long since gone to some hock shop in Texas I think.

But I never forgot how it felt to make the music, to read the notes and turn them into something beautiful. I never forgot the feeling deep inside me, coming from my soul to bring life to this instrument and it wasn't just music...it was me. It was who I was. Crazy, Corny maybe, but I was one with the flute.

About a month ago one of my neices surprised me at a family gathering by not only announcing that she was now taking flute lessons just like her Aunt Be did, but she had it with her. She brought it out for me to play. I got the feeling that everyone was watching as I put it together and even now I feel tears coming to my eyes. I had no idea that I had missed it that much. I knew I was rusty and I knew I had forgotten the fingering and didn't know how to read the notes anymore. But I put it to my mouth and blew. LOL It sounded terrible. I got a little better after a few minutes, at least I did remember where the fingers went, but I knew right then and there that I had to get me one of these and play again.

And that is what I've done. After thinking about it I went to ebay the other day and bought me a brand new flute. It will be here in about 10 days and I cannot wait. I also had to get a beginners book to refresh myself but I am soooo looking forward to locking myself in the bedroom again, perhaps when I'm troubled, and playing my heart out once again. I feel a little guilty that I spent the money that could probubly go for something more important right now but my hubby assures me that this is what I need to do. It's hard for me to do something nice for myself like this but just this once I think I'm going to be a little selfish.

Thanks for reading and if you have a story about something nice you've done for yourself, I would love to hear it.

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