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Date: 1/11/2004 9:06:00 PM
From Authorid: 3263
I *so* know what you've gone through. Congratulations on your loss   |
Date: 1/11/2004 9:10:00 PM
From Authorid: 50864
Kaja I know you have talked about you battles with you weight but I have always thought of you as beautiful. You have such a glow it shines in your posts.  |
Date: 1/11/2004 9:12:00 PM
From Authorid: 11341
THE most important thing you can do in your life is love yourself. Im proud of you for the weight loss. You have got to loose the bitterness. Not only will it eat you up, but other will see or feel it and back away from you. Again I am proud of you!  |
Date: 1/11/2004 9:13:00 PM ( From Author )
From Authorid: 15675
thanks everyone. DMK I am trying, some people try to make it hard though ya know what I mean?  |
Date: 1/11/2004 9:13:00 PM
From Authorid: 56293
Hiya Queen Crazy! First off, I want to say, I'm sorry people have been so cruel to you. That is just awful. I can admit, I haven't always been the nicest person, But I would NEVER say such things to a person like the things you have heard. People need to realize that looks aren't everything. And if someone can't see past the outside, then are they really worth it? I've always believed that people bring down other people, to make themselves feel better. But in the end, I think they end up feeling worse. Just make yourself happy! And don't worry about what other people think .. Congrats on weight loss! ((Hugs))  |
Date: 1/11/2004 9:16:00 PM
From Authorid: 53909
Wow, you're story had me tear up because I know how you feel and I know what it's like to go through stuff like this. I'm not the perfect weight for my height and it's been making me miserable. Throughout grade school to High school, I was always made fun of. I've had kids throw food at me during lunch pretending that I was some starving animal. I've have numerous names said to be because of my weight. I remember walking down the street going home and two teenager guys were in a truck and they yelled out to me "You're Freakin' (different word) Ugly, You fat cow!!" I remember sitting in class in one of my Middle school classes. There was a desk with a broken chair and this one guy, Jeremy...who would always make fun of me, yelled out "Why did you break this desk??" Or something like that. I remember wearing real baggy clothes to school, real baggy! I thought maybe it would hide some of my fat. It took me forever to actually wear a tank top and a sleeveless shirt to school and I remember getting those looks when they saw me in those clothings. I even tried to take away my life one time because I was miserable and with other things. I had put myself in the hospital and I had to see shrinks and take medication. I don't know why, but I didn't tell them how I really felt. I didn't trust telling a shrink, someone that I didn't know about my problems. I've had best friends and friends make fun of me. I never understood why my friends made fun of me, I thought friends weren't suppose to do that? During my senior year, I went out with a guy for about a year. People kept asking each other what we saw in each other...and people would often yell out "Fat cows! Fat Cows!! Why do fat people always go out with each other?? Its so nasty!!" I can go on and on..... Right now, I am trying to loose weight. It's one of my major goals this year, especially before my wedding day in September. I know that I will cry if I saw myself in that dress knowing that I was fat....maybe that's just stupid...but I know I won't like how I would look. I still have a very low self esteem and I have no friends at all. I don't know why I don't have any friends...I've had friends that used me, call me names and all this other stuff... I guess I'm just afraid of making new friends and afraid of things happening all over again, no matter how much I want a best friend, or just a friend that can relate to me. Anyways...I know how you feel.... I'm glad that you wrote this post, knowing that there are other people out there know how we feel.  |
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Date: 1/11/2004 9:18:00 PM
From Authorid: 53909
Oh yes...Congrats on the weight loss! It sounds like you're doing well. I've only lost 5 lbs so far on my so called diet of 2 weeks..... I hope that I reach my goal. |
Date: 1/11/2004 9:23:00 PM
From Authorid: 6915
"Unlike some stupid people my age (I've known in real life) I'm not looking for true love, just ya know a stupid teenage relationship." 1st of all I disagree with this line...I think its safe to say that one day you will fall in love with someone..and that person will make you feel beautiful and loved..inside AND out. So dont hesitate to look now! Your post is amazing...I usually dont read long posts but your kept me hooked. Good luck with reaching your goals..you've come a long way already :0)  |
Date: 1/11/2004 9:24:00 PM
From Authorid: 42945
congratulations hunny on your weight loss, but I have to say that when I was a teenager, I was so thin, and I used to eat like a horse..just couldnt put on the weight, and I kid you not, how people used to be so rude to me about being so thin, as if I was deliberately not eating, used to break my heart....I used to pray that I could put on weight, anyway, as I got older I started to put on some weight and now I wish I could take some off, about 21 to 30lbs, I'm still the same person whether I was thin or fatter, and now I think, that its whats on the inside of me, that counts.....learn to love yourself hun and you'll look at things in a different perspective....hugs  |
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Date: 1/11/2004 9:25:00 PM
From Authorid: 6915
Ohh..by the way..you look beautiful in your pictures! Especially the school pic ( thats what it looks like) Your a very pretty girl...I think I also remember talking to you about you cairn..I have one too. |
Date: 1/11/2004 9:25:00 PM
From Authorid: 13546
Wow hon.. *hugs* This one.. really got to me hon.. I have been in those shoes.. and I have been there.. First and foremost I want to say congrats to you on your weight loss hon. That is wonderful. You go girl!! I used to weigh 205 pounds .. I know how creul people can be, and it makes me sad that they keep doing those things to other people. I was bullied so much in Elementary School - Junior High School. I was literally scarred for life because of those people, and for quite some time.. I believed those things that they said to me.. the put downs.. it was painful to look at myself in the mirror.. every day was horrible for me.. and I wanted to die. In High School I retreated big time, no one really made fun of me by that time.. but I still had those feelings.. it is hard. And I never had a "real" high school experience, it was a horrible experience actually. I was lucky I actually graduated. ... I am 19 now.. almost 20 , I have not weighed myself in over 2 years, and do not wish to.. my whole outlook has changed.. YOU are such a strong person hon.. thank you for sharing yourself with us, I know that you will help so many people by doing this, there are so many other people fighting this battle. *hugs* to you hon.  |
Date: 1/11/2004 9:26:00 PM
From Authorid: 12103
I enjoyed reading your story...i actually read the whole thing..lol I never have the patients to sit down and read anything. IT caught my attnetion because when i was in middle school i was overweight and didnt have real friends..they were always mean to me..i could never understand why. They would only be my friends sometimes. Im not going to give you that crap about how "inner beauty is the only thing that matters"....I do belive though that innter beauty is more important than outter beauty. School sucks though when you have immature attitude people attending...There was this popular boy when i was in 7th grade who pulled my chair out from underneath me and i fell on the ground and these popular girls laughed..that was awful i still remember how bad my butt hurt..but even more how embarassed i was and wanted to cry..I couldnt understand how people could be so mean...the same year i had this one "friend" and i told her i was a serperano (spelling wrong....high singing voice is what i mean) and she said "Yeah usually fat girls are" and it was so mean...I thought she was my friend ya know? NOW i am 20 years old..and graduated all that..I lost weight and that girl is fatter than me....We work togehter...kinda strange..but I think in the end everybody gets what they deserve  |
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Date: 1/11/2004 10:07:00 PM
From Authorid: 60992
I'm a fat girl.. I feel ugly as well.. But I guess I'm lucky because I never grew up with that type of teasing well a little bit, my friends are all thin but they neva teased me, I'm not really happy with my weight but I dun mind cracking jokes, heck one of my nicknames is Big D... Some kids can be stupid teasin others, we're all the same inside and you can't judge by the way a person looks... Some ppl said I'm pretty but der all on da net not ppl right in my eyes say it.. I'll probably try and lose weight but right now I'm content and busy.... Conrats katie on ur loss. Canuck Hugs* -des  |
Date: 1/11/2004 10:14:00 PM ( From Author )
From Authorid: 15675
Oh man where to start lol okay lemme try this . Social Slacker thanxies and Punk Star Chick I replied to your msg I can so relate and Im sorry you went through that! Shimmer Kiss I didnt mention my *last* failed attempt at a relationship in this post because I didnt think it fit but it might. My cousin (not the one who avoided me but a dif one I recently considered a friend) tried to set me up with a boy my age named Bobby. He was supposdly sooo sweet and oh he heard my problems and was sweet and then he asked me out. Not 10 mins later I found out that he had a gf already and that he had asked my skinny sister out TWICE in the past week and was still flirting with her. When I went to dump his butt he and my cousin told me just to 'be friends' with him again :O how insulting is that? Anyways he continued to flirt with my sister tell she came here for thanksgiving and was logged on lol I deleted and blocked him on her list  she said it was okay though. See things like that really make me just I hate to say it but desperate! I keep fallin for these awful people because I just dont feel good enough. I know Mr. Right will come someday but Im sooo envious of girls who ya know like my sister can have boyfriends who really like them and think their beautiful and ya know just 'have that teen life'. Its not something only in the movies despite what people tell me LOL! And thanxies . Zema thanxies and Im sorry that happened to you. I've heard of this before and I can say I may be guilty of it but maybe not. The only time I start getting jealous (I never voice my opinion though) of skinnier girls is when I see them with their bfs, or hear them cackling with their friends talking about how their friends shouldn't 'drink their wine coolers' (when these girls are my age!) ShimmerKiss lol Im embarassed those pics are horroble and last month I sent new ones but so far LSR hasnt had time to update the site :$... The pic on the first page is from August 2003, the pic on the 2nd page is from the last day of 2002 so those are old ones. Lol my hairs black right now but the blondes coming back. I hate that blonde look ugh that woman killed my hair! RainbowGirl thanxies and I msged ya and thanks for the response. Princess Jen I'm with you on innerbeauty is important and more so then outer but thats a mature people point of view and as mentioned most people my age arent that way LOL! Im sorry that happend to u *hugs*. Authoronly thanxies! |
| Date: 1/11/2004 10:34:00 PM From Authorid: 62525 Oh I so know where u are coming from I was over weight all throw my whole school life and still am.. I am 21 now. I never had a boyfriend till I was 17 and he was older then I was by about 4 years. I can remember all the bad things that kids would say to me and things they would do.. I was so depressed by the time I was in 10th grade it was the worst of all my school years.. and only got worse as the years went on.. I have VERY Low self-esteem because of all the things people would say to me. I like no friends I tried so had to fit in but know matter what I tried it never worked.. And well for having crushes i am sure i had lots but i know that if i would say anything people would really pick on me more then they already did.. and i remember one year i think i was in 6th grade i would be so sick by the time i got to school because i was so worried about going and i would end up going home early everyday this went on for about a month i think or so when one day when my dad picked me up from school he asked me what was wrong y was it that i always wanted to come home and i just broke down and cried i had never told my parents what was going on with everything i did not want them to have to worry well that night both my parents sat me down and had a long talk with me about how i was beautiful and that i should not worry about what others think of me. well it help till i went to Junior High then things got bad again.. went throw lots of concealing nothing seemed to ever help nothing ever made it stop so it still kept hurting i would not let them know it hurt me but when i got home i would cry my self to sleep every night praying to god to make me skinny and pretty by the time i woke up well u all know as well as i know that's not possible but it was worth the try and well to god i was perfect.. But anyway i just want to let u know that you are not the only one that there are many of use out there just like you.. and well i am so proud of u for losing ~*~Congratulations~*~ **EastCoastGirl21** |
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Date: 1/11/2004 10:42:00 PM ( From Author )
From Authorid: 15675
Des I doubt your ugly and if your happy with yourself then dont change for anyone *hugs*. **EastCoastGirl21** Thanxies and I'm sorry that happened to you |
Date: 1/11/2004 11:49:00 PM
From Authorid: 45684
Wow. You say you don't want pity, so I won't say I'm sorry that you had to go through this. I will say though, that I can relate to your story. I was a fat teen as well. I was never really teased, or at least they didn't do it to my face, but I wasn't popular. I did not have a boyfriend until I was 18. I was still fat, and he was fatter than I was. Two years ago, I decided that I had had ENOUGH. I weighed 210lbs. My dad bought a treadmill, and I cut back on my food, and started walking everyday. I lost 60lbs in three months. Today, I am still at 150, and I'd like to lose at least another 20lbs, and I will someday soon. I am soooo proud of you! If you ever need to talk you can message me. I can offer support if ya need it. We may be former fat teens, but somehow I think that it will make us stronger. At least I know that is what it did for me.  |
Date: 1/12/2004 1:10:00 AM ( Admin )
Good post, very informative. I think many people today face this problem and I would like to try and help, but not sure what USM can do.  |
Date: 1/12/2004 1:16:00 AM
From Authorid: 50193
I felt the pain, too. I was 286 at my heaviest. I'm about 260 now. I was teased throughout my entire life. There was really no image pressure or anything -- probably because I am a guy -- but that didn't stop everyone from teasing me. It shot down my self-esteem to the minimal level that is remains today. People have no clue how this can affect a person; they're just there to make things hard because it's "cool" or "funny."  |
Date: 1/12/2004 1:25:00 AM
From Authorid: 51587
oh god readin this post made me remember stuff about me when i was younger...and man I know what you have gone through. I had to go through it also. Just sorry to say not as bad as you did tho. But durin that time I had friends, skinny, fat and inbetween...and they were there for me. Even tho I was fat and everything. So I guess I was lucky to have friends durin this time....but not I have lost weight and feel so much better for myself...and getting attention from guys...kinda tickes me off tho..lol But I"m so happy for you and losin the weight *huggs*  |
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Date: 1/12/2004 1:28:00 AM
From Authorid: 51587
BUt I never went to any teachers, priniple(sp) or consulers(sp) tho durin any of the times tho...I felt really bad about what ppl were sayin to me or treated me becuase I was bigger then them. But I was friendly and everything and kinda beat them at their own game by not givin in to what they were saying about me...but I was lucky and moved from it...and went to a great town and was treated great there and made great friends. Hope everythign goes well and everything *huggs* |
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Date: 1/12/2004 1:31:00 AM
From Authorid: 51587
oh and i use to wear the baggy clothes and everything..i guess tryin to hide the fact i was bigger then eevryone else..but now I stay away from baggy clothes and only wear them for bed...lol and now that wear clothes that i look good in and everything I feel so much better about myself *huggs* |
Date: 1/12/2004 1:37:00 AM
From Authorid: 22861
Ex fat girl talking here, keep it up girl, I know what it's like. Its so hard... I have a lot of respect for you. Love peace and eternal happiness. Kate.  |
Date: 1/12/2004 2:20:00 AM
From Authorid: 51827
I dont think that you have the right outlook on things. You know, inner beauty does matter. For example, I was watching Paris Hilton in her new show, Simple Life, and you know, she maybe beautiful and everything but she has the worst attitude and for that, I dont think she is pretty, just because of her attitude and personality. So yes, inner beauty is the only thing that really matters. Beauty only gets you so far, but its whats on the inside that counts. I know you shouldnt look at the world through rose colored glasses but you shouldnt look at it so bitterly as you say you do. I am 20, and enjoyed the whole 20 years of my life and I tried not to have regrets and you shouldnt either. By regrets I mean, live your life the way you want to. The things ppl say can only hurt you as much as you want them to hurt you and let them. You are a great person, and no, I am not giving you pity. I just wish you wouldnt be so bitter and when you let your guard down you will be able to let ppl in your life that deserve your friendship and that are truly great ppl at heart. Enjoy life, Ride your bike despite what others say, get in the best shape of your life, and make everyone's jaw drop. Do it for yourself, and for you health. We love you here at USM and want you to be happy. HUGS-  |
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Date: 1/12/2004 2:31:00 AM
From Authorid: 51827
I also want to add that I never knew that teenagers could be so harsh to anyone and I will look at things differently. Like, when I see someone I will smile and say hello because you never know when that little hello can make their day. Im not saying a hello from me is awesome or anything, im just saying everyone likes to be noticed and appreciated. Thanks for the post and congrats on the weight you have lost. Oh, by the way, all of those ppl who have made fun of you, trust me, they will get it back, its called karma. Just wait until your reunion, if you decide to ever see these ppl again, which I wouldnt, but you will notice they want exactly look as they used to. HAHA |
Date: 1/12/2004 2:50:00 AM
From Authorid: 62512
*claps hands* good job on the weightloss, though my weight is fine i was tourmented because of diffrent reasons but hey, I hate teenagers too. O even did the high school drop out thing for 6 months, though then i decided i'm not going to let the prissy popular kids win got my head straginted and I'm go back at the end of the month (which is when school starts here) anyway if ya want to chat or rant just message me - Souless Freak  |
Date: 1/12/2004 2:53:00 AM
From Authorid: 10030
Kids are idiots. It disgusts me how horrible kids are to each other. I've gone through simular bull, and it's not fair. Like you, I was ecstatic to move away from it all. Unfortunatly, it doesn't go away. People are still mean, maybe without even knowing it. I'm not the victim anymore-- but I can pin point the kids in our school who are not "socially acceptable." I'm a senior, and I still see this BS go on. It's not fair.  |
Date: 1/12/2004 3:52:00 AM
From Authorid: 12966
I am really sorry about what you had to go through, at my scholl EVERYONE who is different is made fun of. I am teased endlessly for being a "goody-goody" and they call me "miss perfect" and "virgin mary" b/c Im a Christian and i dont do drugs or sleep around. You said you hate when pople say "oh inner beauty is all that matters and high school doesn't matter and boyfriends don't matter so forth so forth..." but for me that really is true! I have 2 friends at school, they are bott christians too, i have only had 1 boyfriend, and i have never ever been invited to a party. I am really sorry for what you had to go through. My grandma weighs 400 lbs and its hard for her to do a lot of things, she cant even work, but i love her soooooo much! She is the sweetest person and it hurts me when she says stuff like "are you sure you want me to go shopping with you? i dont want people giving you dirty looks, i dont want you tobe embarassed by me." She is my grandma and i love her for who she is. One day people will grow up and see you for who you are! By the way, i looked on the USM Junkies site and you are a very beautiful person, anyone who says different is an idiot!  |
Date: 1/12/2004 4:41:00 AM
From Authorid: 49101
I went through everything you have just listed. I even dealt with kids throwing rocks at me, and push8ing my head into the locker. To top things off, I am now 26 and I a only 4'10. So you can immagine what my life was like when I was SHORTER and fatter than everyone else. Every bully in the world had my name carved in thier hate books. Until I was about 14 or 15. A bully who had bothered me since the third grade pushed me head into my locker after an expecially bad day. I don't know what came over me, but within seconds that girl (Who weighed about a hundred pounds more than me, and stood at LEAST two feet higher up) was on the ground. I don't remeber how she got there to this day. I just remember seeing red. I broke her arm, and her nose, busted her lip, and hit her so hard she almost went deaf in one ear. I almost was charged at the age of 15 with some pretty heafty battery charges. Well, except for one thing. I had one of those little "Books" that you had. Where your parents tell you to write down the things that they do or say to you. Then an Actual REAL friend of mine who was there when this "Attack" took place, witnessed what happened and told everyone that she had hurt me. Anywho, long story short, No body messed with me after that year. And the ones that did, well, got what they deserved. I wasn't afraid to stand up for myself. (I too was a Wiccan BTW) The boys were merciless always, but I was never touched agian in school. Nonetheless, I still hated school, and drooped out in the 11th grade, then went and got my GED, well... LATER. It has been a very long road for me. I understand everything you went through, I wish I could be there, and just give you a big hug. You are strong, you are beautiful, and you can do anything. Don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise. Well, I MUST get ready for work, or I will be late! But I had to come in and say hi, and Congrats on loosing the weight. (I am looking into gastric bypass surgery after having a baby, I know it seems like a quick fix, but it isnt't, I have medical problems that inhibit the amount of physical strain I can put on my bones and body - UN weight related) But hats off to you sweety! Congrats again! And have a GREAT DAY!  |
Date: 1/12/2004 4:43:00 AM
From Authorid: 58078
Wow...this is an amazing post. Congratulations on your weight loss...keep up the great work...pass some of that will power my way...lol  |
Date: 1/12/2004 5:20:00 AM
From Authorid: 40341
I would like to say that I admire you. You have walked through fire and survived.You have many scars that will stay with you but in the end you will become stronger. Teasing of another person is harsh and cruel and I feel your pain. Words are a weapon that used in such a way hurt very badly. I wish this hadnt happened to you.I think children should be taught at a young age how to respect each other.It should start at home. You are a great person no matter what you weigh. By reading your story I know you are intelligent and You are certainly beautiful.Be strong you have come so far.I know your future is bright so stay strong and many blessings will come your way.  |
Date: 1/12/2004 5:23:00 AM
From Authorid: 19871
Good post yeah! ^^ *rubs the back of her ear* cant seem to loose weight >.<  |
Date: 1/12/2004 6:08:00 AM
From Authorid: 5818
I know what you went through i went through the same thing as a teen and it hurts i know and congrats on your loss  |
Date: 1/12/2004 7:01:00 AM
From Authorid: 25390
First of all: *HUGE HUGS* Kaja, you are such a strong person. Thank you for sharing this. I am dealing with weight problems right now and needed to read this. Keep working hard, you are beautiful!  |
Date: 1/12/2004 7:42:00 AM
From Authorid: 27852
inner beauty is eternal and i believe you have that =) for the people's minds are overshadowed with lame perceptions and so-called 'perfect' concepts of their own. I'm not fat but I have many great friends who in their imperfections, they have this unique personality that simply draws the crowd to them...beautiful people they are, no one else can compete. Teens(i believe and since i am still a teen too) They are too obsessed with cliques and popularity that it clouds the truth and shapes their mindset..this is the problem...i hope every teen reads this... an inspiring beautiful post, simply gorgeous kaja...you are a beautiful person and you know you are. simply beautiful and may everyone especially the teen gals and guys realise this, the truth that will bring them more power to their lives=)  |
Date: 1/12/2004 8:32:00 AM
From Authorid: 44321
Congrats on the weight loss and just remember what you think about yourself is all that matters ,the folks that were so awful will get what's coming to them eventually if it has not already.You are a beautiful person,even though things are/were rough, in the end you came out the stronger person for it!  |
Date: 1/12/2004 10:14:00 AM
From Authorid: 57232
I'm just so excited that this is at the top! I haven't read it yet, but I told you that I'm going to! And I am later on tonight :0)  |
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Date: 1/12/2004 10:18:00 AM
From Authorid: 62456
Wow, obviously your post has affected alot of people-myself included. When I was in high school I wasnt over weight but I didnt fit in either. Guys were attracted to me but not genuinely-I would think they really liked me but then later found out they were using me-so, my point is is that you have a desire for guys to be attracted to you but I think most teenage guys have too many hormones raging that are in the way of more than a pysical attraction anyway (I'm speaking in gereral terms, I know not all guys in their teens are the same) what I mean is that maybe you dont really want that kind of attraction. Now, in my adult years, like my mother, I am over weight and I struggle with this everyday. After reading your post I am thankful that I wasnt over weight in my high school years. I wish I could somehow make those people that were so cruel to you feel as bad as you felt but I know that's impossible. I don't blame you for being bitter-I think anyone would be that was abused like that-for what ever the reason the abuse. What I do know though is that if and when you do forgive the cruel injustices done to you-you will feel better. I know how it feels to be bitter and unfortuately the one it hurts most is yourself. That probable sounds cliche but has been true for me. One other thing...I love your writing. I hope you keep up with it because you have a talent. Hope to see more posts from you-I'm sorta new still here so it's nice to meet you-warm hugs -IsisKat  |
Date: 1/12/2004 10:35:00 AM
From Authorid: 58611
I am proud of you for bringing this subject into light! Way to go on your weight loss sweetie!  |
Date: 1/12/2004 10:53:00 AM
From Authorid: 48689
I know I may sound corny, but I think I know how you feel. I'm being completely honest- I hate it when people say that they know what you're feeling, but they honestly don't. I've never been in your position- yes, I am a good 20 pounds overweight (I am 16, am 5'7" and weigh 175 lbs), and even though I've gotten looks and small comments, I've never been humilated. I have a God that calms me, and the greatest best friend in the world. The thing is, I USED to be popular, one of those girls who madde fun of fat girls. But I just couldn't handle it. It was MEAN, and cruel. Teenagers (I am one) are brats. So I may not know how you feel, but I know how the other side feels. People just need an excuse to yell and make fun of someone- it makes them feel better. Congrats on the weight loss...I'm going on a diet too...  |
Date: 1/12/2004 11:09:00 AM
From Authorid: 62408
First off, congratulations on your weight loss! I've recently lost weight myself...I know I posted about it, I think..somewhere. (Between March of '03 and January of '04 I lost 52lbs, and plan to keep going, still have a way to go) But I've been in your shoes. Still get those comments too, even though I'm 25...and again, by the people HEAVIER than me. I've tried analyzing it...perhaps in some weird way, it makes them feel better by putting others down. But I know what you mean. The looks you get when you eat out, etc. But you've got to be feeling on top of the world. I say, when I hit my goal, give me a call, and we'll go shopping! By then, we can really spice up our wardrobe! LOL! Then again, I've already got some great stuff in the back of my closet that I'm starting to fit into. And I never thought that fitting into something OLD would be better than buying something NEW. But don't worry anymore about all those jerks who made fun of you. They're the immature ones, and frankly, will probably remain immature the rest of their life. (Not all of them, but a good portion) Keep up the good work, I'm very happy for you for what you've already lost, and confident you can meet your goal, whatever it may be. If you ever want to talk, message me any time, or email me privately at [email protected] I'd be happy to be your friend, 'weight-loss pal' or just another support system should you want or need one. Take care!! --Christine-3  |
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Date: 1/12/2004 11:25:00 AM ( From Author )
From Authorid: 15675
OMG lol when I went to bed this post was heading towards the bottom, and now its stuck on the top thank you admins! When I posted it I thought Id ask for it to be but then I thought maybe it was to long to really catch anyones eye. Lol I cant reply to all comments (I gotta eat and get on with my day ) but I would like to say thanks and Im sorry to all those who replied and those who replied with similiar trials. There are a few comments I was comment on though. Authorid: 51827 I know inner beauty does matter, especially when people get serious in relationships. No one can tell me though that Paris Hilton would have confidence like that if she were a 100lbs overweight or even like 50! Shes confident because she knows shes got a good body and good money and everyone wants her (heck shes a celebrity for being a ditz and an heiress LOL!) The thing on inner beauty is that MOST teenagers dont care for it let alone to look for it. Put me next to my sister (who is like 4'11 and 100lbs or so, kinda looks like JLo only short lol) at a party and who would the guy come to? He'd bypass me because I wouldn't be something he'd even be intrested in. Also beauty does get you along way sadly. I would like to be in the music industry one day and trust me I've had and heard horror stories on that. Like one company was like 'okay send a picture then we'll talk...' they never even HEARD me sing lol! Okay movin on . LiquidChicken that is good of you . I do agree on this with innerbeauty: if the person is sweet then thats all that matters. Unfortanitly for me every overweight person I've ever met had a very bad attitude (not just teens even my aunts) and made it clear. Miss C I wish I coulda done that! I thought about it but they were never physically violent to me except they would throw some paper wads at me during class occasionally. Authoronly you reminded me of something. You said that kids would talk to you like you were retarded. That happend to me too! Especially in 8th and 9th grade. Like in Science class we were told we could sit where we pleased and I went for a seat in the last row because I like to sleep in science lol! Anyways then these 'popular' boys and a few girls for the next few minutes tried to convince me that 'your a retard' voice to move saying 'oh Krista (one of my 'friends') is up there go sit by her...' they pretty much kicked and my 'friends' to the front row. I was tired so I just didnt deal with it. Also your point on that overweight teens do get the expierence later on is right, and also your right that we come out of it with more then most teens/people every will ! In ways thats good (like you said) because were not as shallow and can enjoy the world but then again as I've mentioned its got some negative side effects too. Lawa-17 that is sooo true about teens. The thing that gets me most is when as I said everyone tells me 'oh inner beauty is more important, all that teen stuff isnt important' but they gotta remember IM STILL A TEEN and to know Im not 'good enough' to expierence it really bothers me. |
Date: 1/12/2004 12:28:00 PM
From Authorid: 42259
I hate teenagers and I hate high school.I hate how a persons clothes are checked out every day and talked about continuously.I mean, there are much more important things in life than whether a person looks good in a certain shirt or not.But it seems important when your the one being talked about, I know.Teachers descriminate too and that sucks more than anything.You sound very mature and intelligent for 16 and more than that you sound like a survivor. Hang in there Kaja, and thanks for posting this.  |
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Date: 1/12/2004 1:20:00 PM
From Authorid: 49976
Awesome post, thanks for sharing all this,I went through the teasing and stuff and it SUCKS,i'm on a diet now and lost 15-20 lbs and i'm feeling comfortable in my own skin, so slowly the clothes are loosing there bagginess. it's such an awesome feeling when you go down clothing sizes lol! people need to realise just because you look different doesn't mean you don't have feelings(lol that was sorta corny but its how I feel:P) Hugs&Cookies  |
Date: 1/12/2004 1:52:00 PM
From Authorid: 59861
hey man. are you graduating in 2005? me too. awesome. i'm 17 tho,late bloomer. i know what you have been through, just not quite the same. i'm horribly thin and short, i guess it's petite. i'm 5'2" or whatever those apostraphe things are, and i'm going to be 18 shortly, but i only wiegh just shy of 110 lbs. i used to try to fit in, but it never happened. i just let people come to me. i gained some weight, i'm around 120 now, so i'm good, but i still have health problems. once i stopped being so hateful, people just kindof took to me. now instead of following preppies or skaters or goths or whoever, people are following me. i'm none of the above. i'm not smart, talented, georgeous, musically inclined, i'm not goth, a skater, a jock, a prep, i'm just ronessa. i'm just me and theres alot of people who can like you for who you are. you just gotta wait and let them find you. thats what i did and i'm fine now. i feel for your pain, but remember nothing's hard. tomorrow came for you and you seem to be seeing brighter skies now, but you HAVE to loose the bitterness. it's incredibly unattractive. even super models can be hideousley ugly on the inside. i'm glad for your pound loss. i wish you luck peace n luv  |
Date: 1/12/2004 2:02:00 PM
From Authorid: 11097
Reading this post brought back alot of memories for me, and made me realize alot of things. I was also teased, and treated bad, and even hit. My mother passed away when I was ten, so I was in 5th grade, and thats when all the trouble and trials started. I had a friend * and she was always a good friend until my mother passed away. After that she changed, and I am still not even sure why she did what she did today, but she began to do horrible things to get attention and then blame them on me. I was still trying to recover from what had happened with my mother so I was very shy and withdrawn then, and my teacher would get angered very easily and lash out at me. She kept me inside during recess to punish me and made me do extra work or made me recite things out of a book in front of the class and when I was done tell me what a horrible job I did. The fights between me and my friend got so bad that my teacher actually had class dicussion about me, in front of me, and made the class get up and pick sides, saying who they believed and why.... then middle school...then high school.... between that time I had been beaten up and abused mentally. There were these popular girls in my class, they were pretty and skinny and looked upon with alot of respect by other students, and they would just tease me so horribly. I was so withdrawn by now I didn't even fight back... just went home and cried. They would say things in front of the class, they would trip me, if I smiled they would look at me and ask me what I was happy about... they took my school work...they did everything. And when I cried, they laughed. High school was no better.... I had a small group of friends and even that broke off because in the end, some people were never really your friends to begin with. In 10th grade I was asked to leave the school because of a fight between one of my "friends" and me. We had an arguement, over a boy I liked, and she went and spread nasty rumors about me. When I confronted her, she had an older friend there who pushed me and threatened me, I got in trouble. it got so bad they spread rumors of me wanting to hurt people....so the police were there and all the school officals and I was asked to leave. Nobody believed me and they would often call me out of class and question me for hours. The school officals then just torn me up emotionally saying I was depressed and a bad person and I needed to be taken away and all I do is cause trouble.... my father protected me fully and believed me, and I went to an after school program. The kids at school were always horrible to me and I know how it feels. I was never "beautiful" in anyones eyes and I know how it feels to be alone and singled out. People made fun of my weight too, and came up with all sorts of names to call me. I would walk down the street in my development and the names just came rolling out of everyones mouths. I didnt know what I did to deserve it or why it was happening; all I ever wanted was a real friend. Well I graduated high school and I am in my second year of college... and being away from all those people helped alot. I wanted to share that with you to tell you, you aren't alone and I know how it feels, I have been there. Your very brave for posting this and I am so sorry that you had to go through all of that, nobody deserves it. This world is backwards, and sometimes you just cant expect anything from anyone. It's hard to believe in inner beauty when it seems like nobody cares to look for it anymore, but reading this post your inner beauty did come out, and showed that you are a strong and good person. You deserve so much better than what you have received, and I only hope times makes up for it. You've come this far, don't ever give up, make the best with what you have. Please keep being strong and don't ever change for anyone...be true to yourself. ((hugs)) Thank you for this post *  |
Date: 1/12/2004 2:08:00 PM
From Authorid: 62367
At 10 I weighed 110lbs. At 42, I weighed 387 at 5'2". In between I tried every diet imaginable and even managed to keep my weight low enough to spend 3 years in the Army. The yoyo dieting did severe damage to my metabolism to the point that my only choice finally was life threatening surgery; gastric-by-pass surgery. I weigh around 180 now and am very happy. I have had military doctor tell me that I should never weigh more than 100lbs. I told him that I had not been that low since I was 10. In high school, my weight bounced between 140 and 180 and believe it or not was involved in competitive water ballet. One of the common back handed compliments I have received most of my life is "You have such a pretty face..", you can fill in the rest. No matter what you weigh don't let anyone convince you that you are ugly. If someone makes a bad remark, stop and stare at them hard. Don't say anything, just give them as mean a stare as you can. This usually worked with neighbor kids who tried to get a reaction out of me. Every morning when you look at yourself in the mirror, say "I am beautiful" and mean it. No matter what you weigh or look like you are beautiful if you believe you are  |
Date: 1/12/2004 3:42:00 PM
From Authorid: 38601
Congratulations!! I've lost 30 pounds myself...still not my ideal size, but I'm close. Personally, i've seen your pictures at the Junkies site and I thought you were very pretty just as you were, I don't get this whole obssession with being tiny at all...it looks uncomfortable, lol. But I'm glad you're happy!  |
Date: 1/12/2004 3:56:00 PM
From Authorid: 57640
I've always been skinny.. i have a very very high matabalism.. i may not understand everything about being in that position.. but i know its tuff~ you just gotta stand up strong and be proud of what you are! Big n' beautiful! congrats on the weight loss too *Hugs*  |
Date: 1/12/2004 4:06:00 PM
From Authorid: 25756
Oh my gosh...some people are just.....MEAN. That is so wrong! I'm just speechless...I mean, I've always known that people were teased about being overweight...and it makes me so angry!!! But I've never actually seen or heard personally of anybody being yeased that much about it. It hurts me to hear of people saying all these really mean things to you...to anyone! Have they no respect for others? I've seen your pictures on USM and I really think you are NOT fat....you have a nice shape and everything. People can be just plain horrible...I'm so glad you stuck with it and lost weight! Congratuations! Keep it up!  |
Date: 1/12/2004 4:09:00 PM
From Authorid: 20296
my daughter is of average weight, however she is very discriminated at her shcool. she tends to dress a lot like a grunge queen, looks a lot like courtney love and has a pretty loud mouth.however, she never wears anything less appropriate than most girls that are considered trendy or "preppy" to the high school standards or whatever. I make sure she is covered and follows the rules. because of her difference from the "norm" she is ostrasized (sp) and belittled by most of her fellow classmates. they call out "freak" or whatever as she is walking down the halls or street to lunch. she states she is not bothered by this, but I know she must be a little. although, i have tought her that these clones will be unimportant later in their life. they tend to follow blindly whatever the other is doing and thus will never know them own selves or their potential to be different and perhaps different. most real genius' were made fun off as youths, shuned for one reason or another or considered "abnormal" at some time in their lives or another. einstien was thought to be retarded for goodness sakes. remember that these people are shallow, some can be termed 'sheep' blinding following the other and never finding the true meanings to life because they never look deeper than their own cliques. too bad because some of these people, had they looked into themselves instead of following some lead, would have turned out to have made a very good friend or perhaps learned something about judging another. I also believe that what goes around will come around. although, i did not have any real problems being accepted in highschool and hung out with a vastly different sec of different people whenever i chose, i did notice that some of those that were soooooooooo popular and "sheep like" ended up not doing so well in their adult life. I would think that if any kid knew that highschool and childhood, although seemingly endless, is not endless. you spend more time being an adult. many times,those nerds grow up to make the big bucks with their brains and those misfits ended up being talented musianians, ect. please know that although this has been tough and sooo unfair. it DOES NOT define who you are in any way. i am glad that you have managed to shed some pounds, but that is NOT who you are..not really. you are whatever you soul grows and becomes. you are ahead of the game hun *huGz* ok...I wrote a book:P  |
Date: 1/12/2004 6:13:00 PM
From Authorid: 14780
You truly have overcome a lot of the ridicule and look at you..you have the strength to better yourself not only health wise but mentally too. Your strong in spirit and will be able to reach your goals...Congrats!  |
Date: 1/14/2004 11:05:00 AM
From Authorid: 943
Your story here is amazing. Use it to your advantage and be STRONG. Show them all what you are made of. You, my dear, I see as a success. Your day will come, and so will their's. What comes around goes around, watch and see.  |
Date: 5/6/2004 6:13:00 PM
From Authorid: 51070
I looked at your pictures on LSR's website, and you are really pretty. The people who are cruel should just go to the devil. At my biggest, I was about 175 and for my height and build it was too much. Finally, I just started to exercise and cut back on my calorie intake and I lost nearly forty pounds. I am around 138 right now (I'd like to be 120), but it does suck being "fat" and it sucks being considered "ugly".  |
Date: 2/21/2005 8:31:00 PM
From Authorid: 7574
This is a really great post and I know the exact same feelings. Except for the fact that no one really ever came out and said much to me. I'm a big person, and fat. Not tremendously so, but I do feel discriminated against often. I working on it though, but it is so hard...Great post.  |
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