Girl problem....sort of :\ Need help! Aaahh

Okay...this is sort of a confusing story but any advice is welcome! This is a long story, but its really eating at me and I need to get it off my chest.

Me and this girl have been best friends for about 2 years now. We used to hang out all the time and talk on the phone all summer long and I even almost went to Texas with her family. Anyway, about last year when we started high school she formed this huge crush on this guy who is in her older sister's grade, (shes a senior this year) and even told him that she was in love with him. I never had talked to this guy before, but I had heard all the great things she had to say about him. Now, this girl is a very jealous person and any time he would form a crush on someone else and she found out, she would vent on me for weeks and weeks! I would be the supporting friend and say, well maybe one day he'll like you....but I always secrely knew that he probably would not. I wanted to be straight up with her and tell her to get over him and what not and tell her I was tired of listening to it, but I kept my mouth shut and just let her talk because I thought maybe it would release all the stress for her. Throughout this time, I realized that I was there to listen to HER problems, and not mine. I would try to tell her my problems, and she would just say "Oh" and change the subject. Anyways, before last summer, this boy she was "in love with" took a liking to me. Even though I had never talked to him before, I guess he had heard I was cool and he thought I was pretty (not being concieted here)and for some reason this excited me. This boy is very popular in his grade and is very awesome from what I had heard too. Anyways, without telling, this upset my friend a lot. Earlier he had liked another one of her close friends so she was getting sick of it. Anyways, fast forward to the beginning of this school year, she plays soccer and so does her sister. My friend now started hanging out with the people on her soccer team a lot, which I didnt mind because i sort of knew them too and they were very nice. But she didn't seem to want to hang out with me anymore and whenever I was with her and her soccer friends she would make me feel less than them by making fun of me for being blonde or she would even make fun of the classes I took at school. I had got upset with her but never said anything because I dont like drama or fighting. But besides that, this boy shes been crushing on started to like her older sister. I kept telling her that it probably wasn't true and that they were just close friends, but she was so sure that they were hooking up without telling anyone. Turns out she was right, and a few weeks later they were dating. She wouldnt talk to her sister and of course, I was there to listen about every little thing that she had to say about this. She would read her sisters messages on AIM from him and e-mail them to me, she would even sneak into her sisters cell phone and read text messages from him. I told her not to do that because she was just letting herself up to fall right back down again but she kept on doing it. Luckily for her, it didn't last, and they broke up after about a month. However, a few weeks after that break-up, this boy started talking to me. By this time I had talked to him a few times, but he was very interested in me now, and I was still a little excited to get this kind of attention from him. I kept telling myself that I couldnt do that to her and not to start to like him, but secretly I started liking him more and more. He would send me text messages and say the sweetest things to me, he would call me beautiful and everything. It was so nice, but i never told my friend any of it, knowing that nothing had happened and I didn't want her to freak out. One day at school, she asked to borrow my cell phone to call her mom. BIG MISTAKE. She ended up reading the text messages and got very upset and just handed me the phone and ran off. I knew exactly what had happened. Anyways, she didnt talk to me all the next day until after 8th period when I guess she realized nothing happened, and we became okay again. I was still upset with her for acting like that though. I even told people I was mad at her for thinking I would do that to her. Even though I knew probably I would end up hanging out with him more, I didn't want her to get upset. I didn't wanna be the reason she was mad. But more things kept happening. One day she walked over to my locker and he was waiting there for me, and another day she saw him give me a candy cane. Little things like that would send her on those grudgy rages and she wouldnt talk to me for a few days. And in all honesty, I didn't want to talk to her. I was so mad about her just ignoring me for stupid things like that and getting sick of it. I wanted to be able to like this boy freely, so I thought up all the reasons why i should be mad at her. And boy, I had a lot. Not only has this girl ditched me for her new older soccer friends, but she's made me feel un-superior and stupid in front of people. She doesn't listen to my problems anymore, and would put me in akward positions. I came to the conclusion that this girl isn't the girl I was best friends with 2 years ago. So I decided to live my life and hang out with this guy..breaking the "chicks before dicks" rule. I felt bad at first but then I thought, to hell with it. I dont want to feel bad, but I'm slowly starting to. Not really guilty, but more upset that shes mad at me. Ive hung out with this guy twice over christmas break and he's even kissed me. I'm pretty sure she's found out about us hanging out and I know shes upset with me. But I don't know what to do. I am starting to get upset about this. At the same time I want to be friends with her (not best friends, but on speaking terms) and at the same time I want to wash my hands of her and her drama. But also I have no desire to talk to her because shes the kind of person who does not like to talk things through. I will say one thing and she will just be like "whatever bye!" and sign offline. I dont think i can talk to her about anything. But, what I want to know is am I wrong for liking this boy? Or should I stop having anything to do with him and let my controlling friend take over once again? I want to have fun in life..I have had a rough last few years, and I think I deserve someone like him. I dont know if i mentioned how wonderful he is, but he's the biggest gentleman I've ever met, opens doors for me and all. Doesnt leave me out, he's just amazing. But still, I cant stop thinking about her and how she must be feeling. I just feel like she's had all the boys for the past few years and the one time I finally snag one I cant even have him. Oh well, please someone tell me what I am doing lol. And if you read this all the way through, PROPS TO YOU!! Hehe, well thanks.

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