less than perfect *bg169*

you wanted a perfect child
but all you've got is me
you expected more than my best
but my best is all i can be
you don't want me to dissapoint you
but dad you've dissapointed me
why do you put me through all of this pain
why did you walk out on me
you hurt me so much daddy
i've been suffering for so long
you had me asking so many questions
just tell me what i did wrong
did my existance upset you somehow
am i the reason you decided to leave
was i a mistake to walk away from
that's what you've led me to believe
i've been branded with battle wounds
there are scars inside you can't see
you were my superherorocketteer once
but you're not the person you use to be
maybe i dissapoint you so much
because you're ashamed of yourself
maybe i'll keep doing it
and let you suffer the pain i've felt
do you care how much you hurt us
couldn't you put the bottle down
and then one day you decided to leave
it's like you didn't want me around
i sit here in my room tonight
hoping that you will call
but i'm guessing you won't
do you even care at all
what me emotions draw
is the hate i get from you
and i sit here praying i forget
knowing im not going to
so much for your "perfect" child
reading this you realize i'm not a child anymore
i'll let the anger i feel for you go
just like i have before
so i'm sorry if i've dissapointed you
but these emotions i have to explain
you wanted me to be perefect
i'm not, and you're the one i blame
don't think that i don't love you
i do with everything that i am
it's just i've been afraid of you until now
i hope you understand
i've grown up enough to tell you
you need to be my dada
you need to be my hero again
the person that never gets mad
so this is how i feel
and i've felt like this for a while
but no matter what daddy i love you
love your less than perfect child

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