Date: 12/19/2003 5:29:00 AM ( From Author )
From Authorid: 53054
i dont know what i want anymore...why should i want anything when it never happens anyway....i wish that sometimes i was not able to decide things....i wish that pain was not around everywhere u turn...i wish other understood more....  |
Date: 12/19/2003 6:24:00 AM
From Authorid: 62146
Sorry about all this Lil leppy ((hugs)) I can see why this hurts. Try talking to your family that could work I am not too good at advice in this area so I don't really know what to do here so sorry. But all I can sya is dispite all this I hope you a have a merry chrismas.   |
Date: 12/19/2003 6:50:00 AM
From Authorid: 58078
40 hours is a normal working week. I work more then that a week. *shruggs*  |
Date: 12/19/2003 6:50:00 AM
From Authorid: 28848
I'm not into "Christmas" either. I'm hoping that it passes pretty quickly. I don't have any family besides my husband and my two children, no friends either. And my relationship with my husband isn't a good one...so basically I'm pretty much alone and depressed too. All I ever wanted when I was a kid was a real family with a mom and a dad and a good home. I think that was the main thing that I wished for throughout my childhood. Well...that never happen, so as an adult I had this idea that one day I would have a real family of my own with all of the things that I missed out on as a kid. That was what I was thinking when I married my husband..but evidently that's not going to work out either.. We are presently considering a divorce. So yeah I'm always especially depressed on the holidays. I'm sorry if I rambled, I guess I could relate to a lot of what you said. Just try to keep your chin up and eventually the holidays will pass..  |
Date: 12/19/2003 8:05:00 AM
From Authorid: 15394
goodness  How sad... why the loss of trust and respect from mom?? how old are ya?? why you feeling un worthy?  |
Date: 12/19/2003 8:21:00 AM
From Authorid: 58611
Sorry to hear you are having such a hard time, but I think you should focus on what you do have and what is real instead of what you dont have. And as far as the relationship with your mother, it is never too late really, and perhaps you should consider what your part in it is that has caused it to fail as well. In any relationship it always takes two, for every action there is a reaction. I am sure your mother didnt just decide to give up on you, look at what you are doing to her to make her feel this way. If you want your life to be better you have to make it better, no one will ever do it for you. I think you know what you need to do, but somehow you find it easier to fail than succeed. Life is hard, and you can either make it harder on yourself or you can make it better. You have two choices in all aspects of your life, fail or succeed. You choose.  |
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Date: 12/19/2003 9:38:00 AM ( Admin-FA )
I don't know what to say to you girly... *HUGS* I hope things turn out better for you. |
Date: 12/19/2003 10:01:00 AM
From Authorid: 53836
Yes, let it all out! I hope posting this made your burdens lighter. Now, realize we don't know the full story here...who's in Holland and Italy? Your mom/sister/long lost dad? Was it your mom's gift...the trip to Holland and Italy? Surely she had good reasons behind the change of plans if so...I don't know about travel expenses, but it sounds like a pricey trip...and if life is the same where you live as it is here, money's tight. I hope that someone near to you will help bring your spirits back up. Sadness this time of year is mighty painful to bare alone. Cheer up Buttercup  |
Date: 12/19/2003 4:39:00 PM
From Authorid: 38601
aaaw...*Big hugs*  |
Date: 12/19/2003 5:06:00 PM
From Authorid: 28946
LL, I don't know what to say. I like you and think you are an okay person and there are others that care for you also. Some times moms and daughters have some of the worst arguements ever known but hopefully love is still there. Maybe time will ease the rift between you two. I'll keep you in my thoughts LL and prayers and hope that you will find contentment. Please know you are a valuable and important person in someones life.  |
