Anyone else have an Alcoholic Parent? My Story.... ~*Meike*~

My mother is an alcoholic, I'm not sure when it started, but it was around 8 years ago when my parents were divorced. My dad left my mom for another woman. My mom took it hard, she's tried to kill herself on numerous occasions. In the last 5 years her drinking has gotten much worse, this summer I tried to get her to go into lockdown therapy and a detox center, but she is convinced she doesn't have a problem. Her mother (my grandmother) is no help as well; she is convinced all I'm trying to do is ruin my mother’s life.

My mother's biggest argument is that "She doesn't drink everyday" but she hides her drinking, and hides liquor around the house. This weekend she polished off a 60oz bottle of vodka all by herself.

I have a 12-year-old brother who still lives at home. He is the strongest kid I have ever met; he's like a rock. But there is only so much every person can take. I just hope this doesn't affect him later in life. He was the one who found my mom and called an ambulance last time my mother tried to kill herself, and he lives in constant fear she is going to do it again.

My aunt told me about a group called ALANON (I think that's what it's called) but she told me it's a support group for people who have alcoholic relatives. I'm really thinking about joining.

My mom also has huge debt issues. When my parents were married my mom had everything, my dad is pretty well off, so she never had to worry about bills or money. That all changed when he left. At first she was able to live off the child support, but as us kids got older we moved out, and she couldn't collect any money for us, she was forced to get a job. But she hates working, she rarely goes, and she spends all her money on the most ridiculous things!

She has had a boyfriend who has lived with her for the last 5 years, and he helped out alot, he paid most of the bills and bought all the groceries. But also he is an ex-alcoholic, and doesn't drink a drop anymore. This Tuesday he left her, he just couldn't take the emotional stress anymore. I totally understand, I can't believe he stayed that long! Anyways, after he left, I hid all my mom's alcohol and my brother had to hid all her pills.

Soon after he left she was looking for a drink, and I told her I dumped it and she wasn't going to have one. I never backed down. So she lost it, began throwing stuff at me and making up lies about me. Telling my 12-year-old brother stuff that I have never done, trying to make me look bad. Then bad went to worse, she called the Cops on me, and told them I was intruding in her house. So I had to leave. I felt awful, leaving my brother with her. But she said she hated me and never wanted to see me again. All because I wouldn't give her a drink.

Sometimes I doubt myself, and think, maybe my mom doesn't have a problem, but with outbursts like this I know I'm right, and I was right not to let her drink.

I feel alone sometimes, like my life is a mess, and I'm putting on this show, telling myself that everything is ok. When clearly it's not. I'm afraid if my mom's drinking gets any worse my dad will take my brother away from my mom. I know she would take her own life if that happened. I'm scared all the time, every time the phone rings these days, I think it's someone telling me my mother is dead. I should never have thoughts like that.

I know this was long, but thank you so much for listening..........

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