My apologies to the wonderful people of USM--by Emi

I've been feeling pretty weird ever since summer ended. And unfortunately, I've been quite difficult to deal with at times. I guess something snapped when my friend tried to kill herself. I now know how all my friends felt, although I didn't send them hate mail, which was smart because the hate mail I got was so hurtful..

But these last few weeks, I just don't know whats wrong with me...

Perhaps school is just taking a lot out of me. My friend KT has been having trouble with life, and my friend Sara is having problems and of course, I'm the little counselor of the group.

Don't get me wrong, I love helping, I love being there for them and being one of the people they run to for comfort.

But I've been feeling lately like nothing I say matters now. It's like, sometimes they don't listen, which hurts. But when they do listen, I feel like I make things worse. At least, for Sara I seem to.

I've felt a bit like a failure lately, and just really losing it. And no, I don't want sympathy. That's the last thing on my list of things I want right now.

I'm saying all of this to try and apologize for some of my behavior and my neglecting my work.

I have been good at keeping up with Crisis Nation, but I apologize that it might not be to the full extent that I could do. I might be holding back a little.

Also, I am sorry about missing Distant Melodies and Magi Academy lately. I sat down and tried to work some on Magi Academy tonight. I have a good 2 pages done, but I just feel like I can't do it. At least, not now.

Now, I'm going to TRY and have those two updated next week.

But I have some very special people, all the great people who read and comment to my stories, and I feel horrible for neglecting what they wait for as my fans.

(Wow, I have fans... who would have thought...)

So, I apologize.

I also apologize for any fights I may have gotten into. I'm at the edge right now and not really wanting to deal with anything. I've gotten to the point that I don't get extremely mad.. but I do get tired easily and just walk away..

to LPF... I really do care... whether you want to believe it or not.. and I'm sorry if I was rude...

I'm just sorry guys. :(

* Emi *

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