The Thoughts On My Mind Right Now

Well I'm not seeking advice or anything but I just want to type what's on my mind and things that have been happening to me.

Last night my friend wanted me to go to the high school football game and so I took her and a couple of her friends to the game.While I was there I saw my Godmother and she went right up to me and asked me why I was acting so differnt lately and that she didn't know why I was acting so harsh to my ex boyfriend. To make a long story short I had a bad brake up with my ex and he still remained friends with my Godmother, so I couldn't do anything about that so it didn't bother me much until what she told me last night.

She wanted to know why I was being mean to him and harrassing his new girlfriend and all that good stuff that comes with it.She told me to stop being a snob about it and to stop harrassing them. Well I got kind of mad that my Godmother was telling me this so I told her that everything I did I did it for a reason.

Yeah I did slap my boyfriend only becuase he told me that I was a really ^$%#$#$%# and $$#%#$%#$% and the list goes on...so yeah I slapped him. Then I did tell his gf to leave me alone becuase she harrassed me first but that wasn't helping so I just started to say things back to her. Once I told me Godmother this she couldn't believe that they were doing that to me and she was mad casue she was lied to by them. She said that she was sorry but it makes me so mad that my ex still talks about me and tries to get my godmother on his side so that she can yell at me. It really gets to me.I wish that he would just let things go and go on with his life.

My godmother still wants all three of us to talk so that they wont bother me any more and that I wont bother them but I dont want to talk to them. I told her that I would talk to them for her and thats it but I dont think I should talk to them in the first place. I really feel that they should just let it go and stop pointing the finger at me for everything that goes wrong in thier relationship.I kind of want to beat his new girlfriend up for the things that she's said to me but that wouldnt make me any better of a person but I really wish that all of this would stop.What they do is just pointless to me and it hurts me all the time with the things that they say to me.It puts me into tears casue they can't leave me alone and that's all I really want from them.

sorry that it's so long but I just needed to let it all out.Thanks for reading

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