If you've ever thought of ending your life, read this, PLEASE ~Emmie Lou

Ok, none of you know this, but last friday my boyfriend broke up with me, and I made one of the worst choices of my life, I took a bottle of asprin, and waited to die... then I made one of the best choices of my life, I told my best friend, she called 911, and I was hospitalized overnight, that night was the worst of my life, it was so truamatic I almost cry just thinking about it. After god knows how many tubes, and cups full of charcole, the amount of asprin in my system got back to a healthy level, and I was able to be out of Intensive Care. Then it was on to the Psych Ward... at first it was horrible... but then I just opened up and let myself heal... and this is what I've learned from all of this, I wrote this in my AIM profile, so here it is:

Oh God, I've changed so much for the better, I'm clean, I'm clean, I'm clean, for once and for all, I'm sober, I'm strong, I can do this... I've been given a week to take a long hard look at the coices I'm makeing, and the chances I'm takeing, and all that I've been through, and I've come to this conclusion, I'm a weak person, who, given time, Can be the strongest person you'll ever meet, I love life now more than I ever have, I'm happy for the first time in a long time, I might be confused, and there's still stuff going wrong, but for once in my life, I'm ok, I can deal with it.

P.S. Thanks to everyone who's helped me through everything I've had to deal with... and to anyone who's haveing a hard time, it's gonna be ok, remember "If You're Going Through Hell, Keep Going."

-Erin-

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