What happened to my friends?

Don't get me wrong on this post. I am just spilling my feelings on things and how I feel. -lol

I used to have the perfect life. I had a great boyfriend, and tons of friends. I dont know what happened to it all? My boyfriend ended up pulling a gun on me because I had a bandana on my head to cut the grass and he wanted me to take it off and I refused. Well he just flipped out and told me take it off or leave. Needless to say, I left. He said next time he sees me with a bandana on my head in his yard he will make sure there are bullets in the gun. I went in right then and there packed my things and moved back home. It was the best thing I ever did. I found out afterwards that he got involved in drugs real bad.

Well I wasnt worried about losing my boyfriend or anything like that I was having a good time going out with my friends and everything else. We would go hang out at the local club and have a good time and everything. I dont know what changed? I had to go in for outpatient surgery and everyone said they will come see me once I got home and everything, since I wasnt allowed to drive for 24 hours. Well I came home from the hospital and old my boss who I was friends with sis come to see me. He asked how I was feeling and everything. I thought it was sweet since the roads were covered with snow and everything. He could of just called. Well the Dr's put me on Morphine and fentanyl which causes me to be either in the twilight zone or else very sleepy. I am still on them now. Well I am not allowed to drink since I am on these meds so i do still go out I just dont go out as much and when I do go out I drink water.

Well all of my friends have quit calling me and they quit going out with me and everything. I see them when I go out and they act like they dont even know me. I sit there all alone and get bored then I leave. I am to the point I dont even want to go out anymore. I sit at home 95% of the time now and watch TV. I went away for 3 months and not one person called me to see what I was up to or why I havent been around. I wanted to see if they would call to see how I was doing or whatever, but nothing.

Now when I go out if I have someone say hi to me I am doing good. I try to start a conversation with the people I know and it seems like they arent interested in talking to me anymore. I dont know what I did wrong? And I am tired of hearing the same thing over and over about how I am a loser, I cant get a date, I have no friends and so forth. No wonder I dont want to be around anyone any more. Thanks for listening to me complain

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