Could you be the one to help me?-A poem by Gothic Angel

The pain I carry with me hurts so deep down
Sometimes I have to wake up, and take a look around
But when I dream, I wish I could dream on forever
Though most dreams are nightmares that stop, never
The knife is so dull, it can't even leave mark
But as they say, or they don't, the bite's worse than the bark
For if I try to cut myself, that the knife
I bleed inside, slowly suffocating, not wanting life
The feeling of this pain, just never goes away
But I keep on going, thinking, I'll make it through another day
Somehow I know, that I have the strength inside
But even one little thing, can turn the tide
I complain about my pain, yes I know it's true
But how can I not, when no one will help me, like they never do
I grasp for something to hold, but the surface is all smooth
I look for something to hold, to love, something I call truth
But I guess no one cares enough, to take the time
As I have mental break downs, crying fits, while I lose my mind
Couldn't you just show some affection, let me know you care
Because what everyone is doing to me, it just isn't fair!
I am ignored day in, and day out, dawn till dusk
I keep smelling affection of other people, I smell musk
My life has turned around, and I have changed, yes I know
But everything that was good in my life, I have had to watch go
So please would someone care?
Will someone know I am here, and for me be there?
Because I can't just figure out what's wrong with me
I would like someone to help me, help me see
What is wrong with me, and how I can fix it all
Because until then, more of my tears fall.

-Heather AKA Gothic Angel

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