Weird, weird, weird, demon (?), weird, weird……Audria

Ok. This is going to be weird, even for me, even for this site. But I need to share this, and my life is just really, really weird right now.

I wasn’t sure what heading to put this story under….

I’ve been uncomfortable about a presence that was in my appt. for a while. I would ask for everyone but my angels, guides, and masters to leave or go home and this presence would still hang around. At first I thought it was just one of those that were there to help and guide me, but something just didn’t feel right. I can sense the feelings and the goodness and badness of spirits and I just didn’t get anything from this entity. It was like it was hiding its true nature from me. It made me really uncomfortable.

Yesterday, I decided to ‘corner’ it mentally and find out what it was really about. I started asking what it was and why was it hiding from me. It kept wiggling away. That’s the only way I know how to describe it. I would corner it and it would try it’s hardest to get away. I got a little angry at this and told it that it had better give me its reason for being in our house. Again it wiggled away. To say the least, it was not forthcoming.

It was then that I started putting everything together. My son’s extreme discomfort in its presence. He wouldn’t even lay down to go to sleep sometimes. Kids are kind of like animals in that you can trust that if they feel something is bad, it is bad. He also would have fitful dreams and would cry and moan in these dreams. It was hard to watch. There was also a particular corner that ‘felt’ particularly dark. Both my son and me felt watched from particular corners on the ceiling that over looked where we slept. One night as I was trying to go to sleep, I ‘saw’ it. (I seem to pick things up really well with my sixth sense when I’m either going to sleep or really relaxed.) In that particular corner of the ceiling, there was what looked like a black octopus. I didn’t look close enough to see what lie beneath. My conscious mind kind of woke me up, so that I couldn’t see it anymore. I think that was because it felt so evil. Anyway, there was also the time that I felt something tug on my pants and then the power went off and on three times, while I just happened to be reading about demons.

So putting all this together with its desire to hide from me, I decided that it did not have good intentions. I gave it one more chance to give me some sign that it was good. It still could not communicate to me that feeling of goodness I was looking for. With that I decided to get rid of it.

When I go into this, please remember that right now I’m kind of like a person trying to hit an invisible nail with a hammer. I don’t know exactly how to hit it because I haven’t had that much experience with it and I can’t see it, so I’m just hitting as hard as I can from as many different directions as I can hoping that I will get the nail in the wood. I don’t care exactly how I get it in. I just desperately need it in.

First I tried to ‘cast’ the evil out like it talks about in the New Testament. I’m a Christian, so I’m trying to lean on God for his strength and power. There seemed to be a difference in the atmosphere of the appt. immediately. I left my boys outside while I did it. I couldn't read one way or another whether it was gone, but I felt safe enough to bring my boys in. Several people had suggested that I burn sage and waft it in the different rooms of the appt., so I did that too. I don't know if it did any good, I don't know if it in actuality does do any good. At this point, I just wanted it gone. The problem now is that it feels too good. I can still feel a presence, and, having been deceived by one spirit, I'm having a really hard time trusting this feeling. When I walk into the appt., the goodness hits me like a fresh, cool breeze. Can a demon cause this in deception? Or is it just that I have some angel or guide hanging around (thus the presence) and I'm just not used to feeling a 'good' house? Also, the house seems brighter, not as dark. The shadows aren't as dark. I asked my husband if he noticed, and he said no... But the thing that bothers me the most is that the presences I feel are sometimes in the same places that the demon used to like. I don't know why and it makes me feel like I'm being deceived again. One last thing, as I walked with the sage, I asked God to fill the house with light, and to keep evil from entering it's walls and to rid it of any evil that was already here. Maybe that's why it feels so overwhelmingly good. I don't know.

Last night, there was a lot of spirit activity. It scared me, so I asked God for his help over and over again. But the whole thing is confusing for me. I didn’t feel ‘badness.’ I just don’t trust my senses anymore, having been deceived by a spirit before. During the course of my praying to God, I heard someone say in my head, “Look.” Like it was saying, “You have the senses to tell if this is really good or bad. Look.” Like I said I didn’t feel any ‘badness,’ so I calmed down enough to go to sleep. This morning, I could tell my son felt the difference in the atmosphere because when he got up he was all smiles and lovey dovey hugging me and wanting to just sit with me and enjoy the goodness.

Anyway, I'd appreciate your input on the situation.

Thanks!

My life is changing so quickly at this point that it’s really hard to tell you exactly how it’s changing…..