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Confessions of a Former USM Junkie

  Author:  20746  Category:(USM Events) Created:(8/13/2003 12:49:00 PM)
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I suppose a handful of people have been wondering where I've been for the past few months. There isn't really an answer to that. I've just been living my life, or trying to, for the past few months. And when I say trying to... I literally mean trying to.

Things haven't been so good for me. The only person who knows what I mean is my Angel, Rainbow Angel. She really has been an Angel for me -- someone who is looking out for me when I need it most and then some. She's always, always been a shoulder for me to cry on and an ear for me to whisper in. She's a blessing from above. I just thought that right here I should insert my thanks toward her and every ounce of strength she has given me over the years.

I remember a point in my life where I couldn't get enough of USM. My favorite people were here -- people I looked up to, people I didn't like, people I felt connected with, and people I loved as my own blood. But slowly, my favorite people went away. I tried my hardest to stay around after my two best friends on this website left. It wasn't that easy for me and I soon began to lose all perspective of why I came here at all. So I did what came naturally and I stopped coming.

It wasn't just that they were gone. My life began to unravel late last year. I did my best to keep my sanity, but it was very hard for me and in the spring of 2003, I just stopped caring. I felt I had nothing to care about, including USM. I lost a very close friend of mine, also known as my boyfriend, and it hit me hard that our relationship ended the way it did. I gave a very long ammount of time to him and when it ended it was terribly hard on me. But even after that, I still told myself I was fine.

It wasn't until my best friend left that I felt as if I was losing control over my life. My best friend Mike, who is a proud member of the 101st Airborne Division, was 17 years old when he gave me the news that he would be sent to Kuwait. He wasn't even 18 years old and he was telling me that he would have his CIB (Combat Infantryman's Badge). He was so excited that I had to smile when he told me, although a part of me was trembling in fear. I never wanted him to see war, but he did. He reached Kuwait on his 18th birthday. But before he even saw the front lines he was finding out that not everyone, even his fellow soldiers, were for the war. He was stationed at Camp Pennsylvania when an American soldier took it upon himself to use several grenades on his camp.

As you can imagine, even from America war isn't easy on anyone. I was 16 years old, I was already upset over my relationship ending, and my best friend was clear across the globe. My friends and family were literally watching my sanity slip away from me every day. I was in a panic every moment I was awake, running on little hours of sleep and even less food, trying to find out any information I could get about the war. I lasted 3 weeks before I finally had a mental break down in English class and looking back on it, I'm surprised I had lasted 5 days. My family and I checked myself into a mental hospital 3 hours after I began to sob uncontrollably and wouldn't stop.

I'm doing very well, now. I'm slowly getting myself together back to the way I used to be. I know I can't be the exact person I was even 6 months ago, but I can try. I miss being carefree and naive and thinking that nothing in the world would ever bring me down. I know that depression can though, and I'm not foolish enough to believe that if I stop taking my medications the depression won't come back. I know that depression will always be a part of my life, whether I like it or not. I cannot beat it, but I can live with it and cope with it. Adaptation is the key to life. If you don't adapt, you won't survive and I want to survive. So badly.

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Date: 8/13/2003 12:56:00 PM  From Authorid: 52130    i'm glad to hear that you are getting better and becoming your old self again...take care and God bless.   
Date: 8/13/2003 1:02:00 PM  From Authorid: 28190    Awww, Sweets, I had no idea sweety I will add you to my prayers, and I have thought about ya a lot in the past months, wondering where ya went off to. I was once told that when one door closes another one opens, and I share this with as many people as I can. And I hope the other door opening for you is much easier to walk through, as well. If ya ever need to talk, Im here for ya.. Ra is such a beautiful person and I know, and I can feel just how much she was and is still there for you. I wish you all the best in the world, and then some. *HUGE HUGE hugs*  
Date: 8/13/2003 1:08:00 PM  From Authorid: 28848    Thank you for sharing that. I don't think that we have talked that much but I've seen you around a bit, it has been a while though. I am glad to hear that you have taken control of your life again. I totally understand. And I hope that one day I will be able to say the same with my own life. I wish you the very best in all that you do. If you ever want to chat, just msg me.   
Date: 8/13/2003 1:08:00 PM  From Authorid: 58427    Im glad you're doing better!  
Date: 8/13/2003 1:33:00 PM  From Authorid: 1799    oh Rae... I don't know what to say...  
Date: 8/13/2003 3:56:00 PM  From Authorid: 8278    awwww. what a sweet and sad post. i am terribly sorry for eveything you have had to go through. life just doesn't seem fair sometimes. i am really happy to hear that you are doing better. i hope to get the chance to meet you sometime. best of luck to you.  
Date: 8/13/2003 4:15:00 PM  From Authorid: 13283    Sweets if you start caring less I will just have to start caring about you more . I will pray for you each Sunday and ask God that He may give you a part of my strength . You have been gone too long . I remember how happy we were when the Buckeyes won the National Championship ! YAY ! Razzy aka  
Date: 8/13/2003 6:41:00 PM  From Authorid: 12862    Oh how I know this well! I have been through alot
also the past 2 yrs. I found it hard to come here
anymore to because of the same reasons. Where is
the friendship we use to have? Where did all the
people go? The laughs in chat? The friends from the
past? I'm sorry to say, it's just not the same here
anymore. I come now and then, but I don't feel the
*family* anymore. God bless you dear. Hugs,
  
Date: 8/13/2003 9:51:00 PM  From Authorid: 32193    wow qt *hugs* i didnt know :-(... you had always said u were too busy to get on and everything :-( you'll be in my prayers... good luck rae!!! *hugs* i'll be here if u need anyone :-(  
Date: 8/13/2003 10:53:00 PM  From Authorid: 49742    Great Post! I'm glad you shared with us. I am going through some similiar things in my life myself and it gives me courage that someone as young as yourself can overcome this and be so wise to do so. Thanks for posting and giving me the strength to want to do so myself. My son was in the war from Dec to the end of May. I worried sick over him and what he was going through, watching CNN 24/7 taught me alot but also did a strain on my psychic mentally and physical well being. Not to mention other things that have happened in my life from March till now, such as losing several loved ones to death. I have always lived with depression since I was a baby and am dealing with it now and what you say is true about realizing that I will never be rid of it without taking care of it with counselling and meds. Posts like yours with a positive outcome, help people like me going through it, have hope to do the same. I'm glad you're doing better and back with us. Thanks for the update and positive outlook it helps alot. Hugs to you, we all need them!  
Date: 8/14/2003 12:24:00 AM  From Authorid: 13546    You are surviving, every morning you wake up, you have survived another night. And I know that you will continue to survive through what life may throw at you next. I know how hard things have been for you, so many things going on, in such a small amount of time, can really build up. We all need to break down, and re-examine ourselves every once in awhile. And you know I am right here, when you need me! (and even when you don't!). You have control now. Its time to re-build your path, and walk forward, just as you are doing now! Did I say that I am proud of you? And blessed to have you part of my life? Well I am! You are strong. Remember that the hardest battle you will have to fight, is with yourself. LOVE YOU!!!!! *hugs*  
Date: 8/14/2003 10:43:00 AM  From Authorid: 23101    SweetQTPie, I had no idea. I'm glad that usm found Rainbow Angel. She has truley helped many. I'm glad you are coping with it, and I am very sorry to hear about your friend. Did he survive? This is a very touchy subject, that I really know nothing about ... So I just don't know what to say. *Huge Hugglies* Stay Sweet, Always & Forever.  
Date: 8/14/2003 6:49:00 PM  From Authorid: 42945    awwww sweetie, I'm so glad that you have that wonderful Angel, Carissa helping you to take one day at a time, we all need someone at one time or another to help us make it through our trials and tribulations, you will get there hun, this site will help you, leaving here doesnt really achieve anything does it? only more despair I feel....hugs  
Date: 8/15/2003 1:29:00 PM  From Authorid: 30097    Tears came to my eyes as i read this. I know it's hard, but i'm proud of you for continuing on. You are so young (I should talk, I'm 15...) and have had to deal with so much. I also went through a lot that you went through, and just remember, i am ALWAYS here for you, Mom. Love you...  
Date: 8/15/2003 5:41:00 PM  ( From Author ) From Authorid: 20746    I just wanted to thank each and every single one of you for taking the time to read into just a glimpse of my life. I care for each and every single one of you, even those I haven't talked to before. You're all amazing spirits. <33  
Date: 10/12/2003 12:56:00 PM  From Authorid: 21435    Hi there, Sweet QT Remember me from the chatroom? Sure you do..lol..Just wanted to wish you the best and offer my support. You have the proper attitude and that's important when dealing with adversity. Stay cool, old friend. Write on   
Date: 8/14/2005 5:54:00 PM  From Authorid: 63092    I've lost alot recently too, and found myself back at this site again too. It's the force of loving people within these rooms. Hang in there, I'd say it get's better but I dont have proof of that yet either. Good Luck Whiskey  
Date: 11/23/2008 9:38:00 PM  From Authorid: 14175    I'm glad your doing better! I'm sorry things have been so difficult for you. Message me if ever get the chance.  
Date: 6/29/2010 5:21:00 AM  From Authorid: 64356    I survive by laughing at everything, especially when it's inappropriate. I like to think of life as one big joke, and death is the punch line. I love you   
Date: 6/29/2010 5:23:00 AM  From Authorid: 64356    Gotta love old posts. It's like going back in time.  

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