I reallly need help ~ PrincessRoxieRage~

A couple months ago, I got put on anti depressants, and ever since I've started taking them, things have gotten worse for me. I'm constantly depressed, i'm much more likely to snap if someone says the wrong thing, and I'm always on the verge of tears. I'm also way too dependent on the anti depressants. the one day I forgot to take them I verbally attacked my boyfriend and accused him of cheating on me and not loving me, I burst in to tears in a very public place and I yelled at a friend over nothing. Sometimes it gets so bad that I really think I am completely crazy..I start convincing myself of things I know are not true. I'll convince myself my boyfriend's going to stand me up and then I'll refuse to see him or talk to him when he gets there. If he calls me I'll hang up on him and if we've been together for awhile when I start getting upset I'll try to make him go home and just leave me where I am...no matter how far away from my house, or my neighborhood...sometimes my city for that matter, we are. I try to come up with reasons to be mad at my boyfriend and I'll turn the stupidest things into signs that he has feelings for somebody else. I've even threatened to committ suicide for no reason and then started yelling at him and telling him to shut up when he tried to tell me he loved me. I really need help and I know my doctor will just try to put me on more pills, and I don't want to go back to counseling because that really never worked for me.

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