I met this guy this past week, we are cool and he SUCH A SWEETY! He just got back from Iraq, and served in the Army. He is so nice. But he has a past. A very SERIOUS one I can't really go into. Lets just say before the militarty he had some run ins with the law. And served veeeeery serious time.
So anyway. He is REALLY nice (Sorry he is tho, lol) But it seems like fate are already working against us. He is possibly moving away to make better money, and I am moving as well.
Well, he was over last night, and I thought about him all morning, and I was really feeling good about "Us".
Then, in the afternoon, my sister woke me from my nap to tell me that my ExFiance had IM'ed me. I felt that pain, that longing pain... I haven't talked to him in weeks, and now he contacts me, when I am in such an optimistic frame of mind. Just when it seemed I was getting my bearings back?
He has been telling me all about his girlfriend. And all about how nice she is, and how they are moving together to his new home. When he told me that they were taking that step, I pretty much gave up. Even tho we had been talking about getting back together.
Once again I was moving on, and met the new guy D. Things were looking ok again.
I told him about D, thinking he could handle it. Well, he told me today that the thought of me with this guy made him crazy, and that he didn't want me to see him. I thought he was just goofingoff, but he made it clear he was serious. I mean, what am I supposed to be here? A backup plan??? I am SO mad at him, I hate him for telling me how he still loves me, I hate him for telling me he is jealous, I hate him for putting his feelings out there, without taking my feelings into consideration. And I love him. And I am so lost.
He was the one who lit my fire, he was the one who made me feel beautiful all those long months. (We were together for over a year) Why? Why is he doing this to me? I was so happy this mornng, and now I am back at square one. And it isn't easy to move foreward, when my heart is BEGGING me for mercy.
What is it? Why am I feeling this way? Is he just manipulating me? What does he want? And why can't I just let go? You can join Unsolved Mysteries and post your own mysteries or
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